A Gata's Secret Notebook (classified)

Yesterday this one has met a few people, and has gotten herself orders from the Khajiit known as Kazzah, to complete a mission.

How will she do it? She wonders a lot! Maybe some soul gems will do?
First she needs help from her new friend Arisel to get more information.

They wish to capture a villain so A Gata can figure out his magicka and how to stop it from happening.

By the time this is done, these Thalmors will wish they never met A Gata.

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Unless the Gods want something else to happen, off course.

This one might also add that she has also met Khajiit who knows the Gods, though he said only the God of Mercy, this has made her really excited, as she hopes that Khajiit may find others that understand the way of the Gods. His name was Ri'zahrim. Very special Khajiit was concerned about his friend who had just been hurt by an evil and nasty... Thalmor. This one has prayed with him, and after she left she did more prayers in the forest. This one finds the Gods hear better in nature.


Oh, she also met a very interesting and talented Khajiit, who could play beautiful soothing music, music that even helped this one not run from suspicious mers... So many things one can hardly keep track, she cannot forget about meeting Taran, and also she should make sure not to forget the name of the little prince, Ja'kar and his mother, Maddisynn.

She thinks that is all.

Let Khajiit see what the Gods have in store for this day .

(she had the most weird dream about S'ren-ja and some claws made out of sculpted moon sugar. she wonders what it means, and how did someone could do such a thing with the divine instrument, but she realizes it was a dream and is trying to focus on the message)

Yesterday this one took part in a very... interesting ceremony.
Everything was according to this ones dreams, but she shouldn't forget that the Clan Leader is wise, but he abused herr minions.

They are not as pleased as A Gata with all this. And she understand. Poor daedra, after all this one has put them through...
Khajiit will take them out to their favorite spot in all tamriel today and pray on them being calm with all that is happening.

Herr friend Ri'Zahrim took part in the ceremony as well which made this one so relieved.
At firrst she wasn't sure what the Gods meant by sending her there, she thought: "maybe the divine got tired of favoring her", but by seeing that another priest was there, her purrpose became clear!

She must restore balance at every cost!
Khajiit wonders if eradicating the thalmors would be bringing balance or taking it away for good.

This one must pray and think about this.

Let the Gods' will be manifested through this humble Khajiit.

(If praying doesn't give this one answers, she must find those little red frogs. She will eat them and then, she dares the Gods to ignore her... ok this is no time for jokes, this one must go)

Yesterday this one researched ways to track magicka, she could only find things A Gata already knew, but one information, which was refrrrreshingly new: sssome merrr don't have talent in magicka, so they just carry stones with the powerrr to channel another sorcererr's magicka... she wonderrs if that would be the case

Oh, she also went for a stroll with herr minions.
They became calmer, but this one does not trust Brilho one bit. She saw the look in the twilight's eyes when she prromised there would be no rrrrretaliation...
(This one has to remember herrrself severral times about the impuuuurrrrrtance of ballance, when Brilho gets that evil look on herr face)

This one also had a drrream about the Thalmor. Which is leading this one to the Vukhel Guard's mage's guild forrr some assistance.

She will write more laterrr, as she has still a lot of rrresearch to do.

After yesterday, A Gata can say she does not think anymore that all merr are evil.

She met her mer friend, Sycon, who gracefully protected her, and also, there was yet another of them who even sacrificed himself for her. She was very moved, and must remember the name of this one, to whom A Gata will be always in debt.

She cannot say much of what happened, as the events were so intense this one had to calm herself down afterwards with a lot of prayer.


Arisel, Sylva and another Khajiit had captured the mer, A Gata, Taran and Sycon, who were waiting by the wayshire, in case things went wrong, came rushing to question him...

The Thalmor's magicka as it seems, come from it's blood. Someone, way more powerful than Gata, has been experimenting on mer, and fusing their blood with Daedra.

This one thinks the Divine allows every creature to live in peace, as long as this creature takes part in balancing things, but this one does not think the Gods approve of such monstrosity.
After she... questioned the Thalmor, it managed to escape, taking Arisel with him.
Gata off course jumped in after her new friend, she didn't think strait, off course;
The strong Sylva followed suit.

There she saw things she wasn't meant to see, and that messes A Gata up for a bit.
Thank the Divine, a mer! Actually, this one points out that was a VAMPIRE mer, saved her and her companions. They were all rescued due to a sacrifice commited by Donvyn.
That just goes to show that the Divine appears through every form.

This one must pray on this, on all that has happened.

This one has not much to tell,

She got a bit... atuned yesterrrday and hearrd about the Goddess Mara, the only who hasn't spoken to A Gata yet.

She also saw her friend Taren and was very very happy about it. She knows it had been only a day, but she missed him so.
She also saw her friend Sycon and was very, very happy. She is so gratefull for the protection both Taren and Sycon bestowed upon her on the Thalmor event.

This one made plans to take Sycon to the beach with her, she is looking forward to it!

Today she brew some beer and she intents to do some light chanting to block unwanted people from her path!

May the Divine always watch her...

Oh, Brilho just arrived, she brings a parchment with her... This one took it from her and opened it.
What she saw inside she had to write fast! She is scared this might be a dream?

The writing is clearly from her sister Maja!

This one will read it and then will write more.


Thank you Divine for always answering khaiit's prayers!

Yesterday, it was a very, very very very eventful day for this one.
At least in her opinion.

let she puts an order to her thoughts:

-She received a letter from step-sister, Maja-daro, who this one has not seen since she found herr drifting at sea...
Here is what the letter said:
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This one does not know what she thinks about this. The last time she saw Maja, this one had forgiven her, but she does not know how Maja was feeling...
Maja ran away as soon as the marines saved her, so Gata assumes Maja hates her, yes?
She hopes the khajiit will be peaceful and that sisters can be sisters and nothing else.

This one after this letter decided to go to the clan house, where she got some beers as usual. There she met Ma'Zura, the blooming one, and gave him some gold this one had won from the Guild Leader, Ri'sari.
She gave exactly half of what was inside (3k pieces of gold total, so this one gave... 1.5k?). Khajiit was still distressed from the letter, so she picked up some food and went to sit on the cushions she likes.

Then he approached her.

((Gabi: her tail is swatting the ground behind her as she writes this, it is so cuuuute!)) <Gata: Go eavesdrop on the Dremora, human! *throws an empty ink bottle at me*>

This one is not used to this, being friendly. The only friends she had growing up weren't really trustworthy, they would all eventually plot against khajiit... Some would even...
<cries a little>
She won't write about this, as she already knows what happened to her, and it hurts.

Well, he approached her, and at first, she was really uncomfortable. She remembers him the other day, how he hugged her, how she felt. He is a mer for Jode's sake, and this one knows the Funny God had absolutely something to do with her meeting him, by the way.
She also couldn't forget that this one was sure there was something between him and Ma'Zura the other day. But khajiit was really high, so she might not remember it right.
He asked to know about her faith, and she told him what she knew. Then they were approached by Taren's little brother, which by the way, is such a fine khajiit! He even stayed for Gata's preaching, that one.
When the young khajiit was gone, Gata was sure Sycon was trying to get her go out with Taren or his brothers, so she got really upset.

For a mer he was proving himself so blind! She tried to keep calm, but off course he notice her troubled face and after <growls> much insisting on knowing what was wrong with her, he suddenly asked to see her spots, and he, ohmydivine, touched her!
She felt her skin burst to flames, but off course that didn't happen...
After a moment that she cannot really recall for her heart was beating so fast she was afraid this one was going to explode,
he asked her out.
<tail swatting wildly>
This one was exhilarated!
So exhilarated she even forgot to clean up the mess she had made at lunch, actually.

She does not remember the exact order of the events, but they went for a lovely picnic, and they had the most wonderful time.
Khajiit was so nervous at first she almost forgot how to walk, talk... She was so afraid he would hurt her...
Sycon made them tea and sweet meat, and Gata couldn't almost eat, so nervouss this one was.
They sweetened their tea with moon sugar and Gata relaxed a little.
The day was lovely, the rain was falling from the sky (this one's most favorite weather) and it was cold enough so this one could sit really close to him...
And then, she can't remember straight, she was so nervous, but then, she kissed him!
She did.
She knows it is like, ehmergewdssssss, where did this one find the courage to do it? And the conclusion this one has come to is that maybe, it was Mara answering her after 22 years of absence...

She felt so good and felt herself melt away with the rain...
This one needs to sing, to dance! The Gods must be praised!
Well, after a while, he had to go, leaving Gata to miss him, but he promised to return, so Gata went back to the Clan house, as she knew they would be needing some help with the restoration of the town... Not sure how they expected this one to help, but she was confident and went.

As she got to the clan house, the work hadn't begun yet, so she went to the bar to grab a beer. Then she approached Ma'Zura's table and greeted them, she was ignored.
A bit annoyed, this one took her beer to a new spot she has found and that she likes on top of the stairs, and stayed there, relaxing and drinking.

After a while, a very handsome khajiit approached her, his name is Shere'khaan, the clumpsy one. This one was amused at first, but then she discovers that Shere is actually from mistral.
She knew he looked familiar when she saw him at Ma'zura's table. She thinks Shere might have been one of the orphans that used to be protected by Sombra and her gang, back in the day.
This one remembers that some of those orphans actually joined the gang after Maja-daro took charge, even though Gata specifically said that they were to be helped and sparred from this kind of life.
She got that thought stuck in her head and tried to analyze his behavior, as they begun to talk. Gata really liked him and feels it would be such a shame if he was to be working with Maja-daro to bring her down.
She certainly does not wish for that at all.

They were drinking at the bar and waiting for the work to begin when Sycon came back. Gata was so happy! She had almost given up on seeing him again, she thought that maybe he would run away from her awkwardness and her weird past.
It was then she decided to confide in him and tell him her impressions of the khajiit Shere and why would she believe that him and Maja might be after her. He offered his help, but Gata wants to keep things simple and peaceful...
It was raining again, seeming to this one as another reminder of her being in the right path. Being rain and lightning her elements.
After she explained her dilemma to him, they went to work on restorations and Gata saw her friend Arisel and Shere and noticed they are long time friends, as it seems.

And even though Maja might still be paying him to kill this one, khajiit has decided to be more trusting around Shere. But her being trusting don't mean Brilho will. Brilho is such a good guard sometimes! Even if this one gets angry at her, Brilho will always have this one's back!

Anyway, Sycon thought this one how to fix a door and how to bend wood, she will most definetelly try and make a chair or a bow later today.
When they were working, Patossaurus came distressed and dropped a couple of things, it was funny, but this one had to tell him to go away. But as she sensed his mind, she knew he had news, so she told him to wait to tell her later.

After the work was done, Sycon and Gata went for a walk. They even defeated a great monster together!
They spent a wonderful time walking and talking, and just being together, and this one couldn't be more amused. She has never felt this way before and hopes this is not one of Mara's double sided gifts, that she hears so much about.

This one must go now, she has many prayers to do, many Gods to thank...
And she needs to find Patossaurus in orther to see what he had in mind.

May Ballance be always preserved

This one has had so many things happen to her lately, she doesn't even know where to start.
The first thing is about Maja-daro. She came and found Gata.
Gata was so scared, she tried to run from the Khajiit but to no avail.
After they talked, this one has decided to trust the Gods as usual and give her big sister a chance. Yet another one.
And she hopes that this time, Maja-daro won't try anything... funny.
Well after that she had been dealing with Maja, who came to live with this one (we sleep together in a different place everynight)
But she sees Maja lurk around the Clan house, she just hopes that one won't get her or Gata in trouble.
A few days passed and Gata has had a lot more cases of distressed animals to deal with. They sense a shift in the air and are all behaving weird... She has also heard more complains about the people she meet. Almost every citizen now has heard or been subject to some sort of daedric possession or curse. This troubles Gata a lot.

Now. About him. Gata's loved one... This one has no words to express how she feels about him...
She wished to say love, as Mara teaches, but Gata just feels something more than that.
He came the other day and went to work with Gata. On the way there, he said he had a surprise.
They stopped by a stable, and he introduced khajiit to the most loving and adoring horsy.
She is so happy, now she has a horsy friend and she is so happy about it!
Gata thanked Sycon, of course, but she must tell you more about the horsy!
His name is Pajeh and he likes moon sugar, yes?
Without seeing him for a couple of days, when Sycon showed up at the clan house the other night, he had caught this one acting on her wild side... This one does not know how to express what happened.
They left for a date. They hunt. He showed her his other side, as she was showing him hers, and before this one could see it, they laid together. It was this one's first time, she does not know what to feel or say, she just had to put this here, so she would always be reminded that it indeed happened! It wasn't just a dream!

Oh how she wishes she had the words to express this!!
She should pray and thank Mara for finally speaking to her...

Gata hasn't written for a while, and she regrets it, for now the memories, although less painful, seem less correct...
Maja and her are fine, but she is concerned for Maja left to Malabar Tor for a few weeks and hasn't returned or written, or anything...
This one has met an argonian named Hunts - with - Magik. He seems to be Donvyn's companion, Donvyn, who she will always be grateful for. Well, he showed her inside his mind, he told her that Tilano was looking for her. Not only that, but she saw a great darkness and... a light soul, shattered and almost diluted in the dark, gasping for air.
She was really scared and afraid when she learnt that the Thalmor wanted to erase her memory, but she left for the auction that was taking place that night even so.
As she was there, she saw Tilano and he tried to attack her, but Ji, Do'Maa and the others came to help Gata and after another!! vampire gave his life for her, and she was very very moved. She will never forget that the Gods keep sacrificing their chosen ones for her...
After those events, she was invited by Hunts to go to a meeting, were she met a shady Khajiit named Kath, who told her that he wanted to make the clan a better place for all of us. He introduced her to two were wolfs, Hunts being one of them and Bbi the other.
She pledged her loyalty with her fingers crossed. She must keep an eye on this one.
Gata wants to trust him, but something is just off... Got specially confused when learned that he had replaced the link to Hircine to himself on Bbi. This... doesn't seem right...
But she pledged, and will help this Kath, but always watching, always ready. She must keep balance...
The good thing is that she got to know about Hunts' a lot more, and she feels like he is a good friend. She senses the dark in him, but... She knows that that can't be all. At least she hopes. Come on! He is Donvyn's mate! Off course he is adorable!
Anyways... A lot happened afterwards, but nothing comes to her mind right now except for:
She was bitten. She followed that John person, he was being shady... She wen't after him and arrived in a weird place... Some sort of altar was there, and Gata hid behind it. And then she saw, he turned into a werewolf.
As Gata was awed and questioning herself about the reasons the Divine would have to put so many of these people in her path, he found her. Now she knows that a werewolf has heightened sense of smell... Well, anyways, he found her and they begun talking about life and stuff... and she told him that she believes the werewolf trait to be a gift from the Gods, not a curse and stuff, and a beautiful white werewolf appeared.
Gata could tell she was a female, and she approached her. She did not know that female werewolfs were more violent, for she never knew one before. So, Gata decided to play a soothing *winces* flute to the were... But she guesses that the wolf really hated it, for she attacked Gata and ate part of her skin... Luckly, John took Gata to that altar, where, as she passed out, she could see the most incredible dream...
She was at this beautiful valley, and there was a brother there, he invited Gata to pray with him in front of an altar, and as they did, Gata turned into a werewolf.
She heard a voice tell her she had to hunt and howl to her brothers, so she did.
Gata was never much for hunting, but she showed that nasty mammoth who is boss.

After she woke up, her whole world was upside down... She was angry and hurt, even after she made a healing spell to grow back her skin. Even after that she was still in pain, no matter how many drinks she had.
And then she started being mean to Sycon, as she got angrier at him for not noticing her new condition... And then he dumped her for being what he iş. She heard that he was even already bonding with another female at the guard meeting yesterday... That jerk.
Gata was approached to Tilano and he and her made a deal: Lands-on-face will be Gata's apprentice and assistant from now on if she wears a ring that will control her transformation. She accepted, but she is distrustful. This is too good to be true, but she took it anyways, better to have her endangered than to let Lands be exposed to that environment.
She should be safer by Gata's side. And besides, the Gods are letting him live, maybe it is to remind her that without evil the good won't blossom, which she seems to have been forgetting lately...
She then was asked by Kath if she wanted to change her bond with Hircine for a bond with him... She doesn't know, she said yes, but she has a bond with Tilano now... So she must figure this out and chose one of two evils...

Argh, her heart is trying to love them, she senses it, but she doesn't want to. The moment she does, she will be mercilessly at their disposal, and that is not good. None commands a Gata!

So... Gata got to thinking...
Again, more days went by so eventful that this one didn't manage to find time to write...
First, something happened to that goblin, but he was released. She hears he is guilty of high treason against the Sugar Claw Clan, and Gata wishes to find out more about it. She doesn't plan on doing anything to the goblin, but she sure as hell will keep her distance, as she does not trust a creature who would betray their friends like that.
And besides, she doesn't even know him.

Maja is still missing and that freaks Gata out. She went after her sister to Malabar Tor, but she arrived there and the area was ran over by militia. She didn't find any trace of Maja, as if she reached the lands and disappeared in thin air. Which makes this one fear for the worse...
To make things worse, Lands was pulled into another dimension against her will right in front of Gata's eyes!
It was the last drop, she started to freak out. She couldn't find any of them... and even so, Gata alone is useless...
She went to the guard for help, but when she arrived there that Elros was hurt, Donvyn was healing him, and then, something happened, they found this paper and Donvyn destroyed it. By doing it, seems that Donvyn has put himself in danger by being killed by the Dark Brotherhood.
Gata knows it was not Elros fault. At least she wants to believe it wasn't all a plot from that /evil/ Altmer in order to destroy us.
As if the Tilano problem wasn't enough.

On the next day, Gata found Donvyn, who shared with her his concerns... Gata sensed great pain inside his soul... But an amazing light within... Also, Donvyn told her about Hunts and his true nature... Which made what Gata saw in Hunts mind when they met to make more sense. She also learned about how he is in trouble and ripping apart...

If only that was all of our problems... But no, off course this one decided to look for an answer and searching through Shegorath's library she found a book. In that book contained detailed instructions to summon one of the most powerful Dremora rank: a Valkynaz.
She went straight to the clan house and filled herself with moon sugar and alcohol. When Bethany arrived, she asked for her assistance, and then she took Beth upstairs to start the ritual...
She thought it wouldn't work, she thought she didn't have power to do it, but she did it.
Before her, after much work with chanting, Xel appeared. She bound him to herself and ordered him to be nice.
It is a personal joke with this one's self.
Right after /that/ happened, the Brotherhood attacked Donvyn, who actually defended himself marvelously!
Off course Xel had to be a daedra and dismember the body and make everyone leave nauseated...

After spending 24h with Xel so the binding would be fortified, she returned to the Clan house. The moment she put her feet inside she saw Hunts and Donvyn and John all distressed... She felt Hunts' energy fade and she knew right then he would die. She became numb with the realization, but suddenly she saw him. He was cold dead on the ground, but somehow he was also in front of her. He didn't speak, but she could hear him and she knew what to do.
She thought, maybe it was some trick from Xel, or maybe she was just too attuned with Moon Sugar, but she trusted herself, she trusted Hunts and did as his image instructed. She found a journal in his sachel and read from it a soul transfer spell...
With help from John and asking Donvyn to hold a locket that Hunts had in his pocket, she started the spell.
The first thing and the most important was get Donvyn to think happy memories of Hunts. To use his love for the argonian as an anchor for his soul grasp...
Then she touched Hunts soul with her voice, she wrapped it in a chant and started to gently pull it towards the locket...
This one could feel his thunderous presence around her when somehow he started to resist, and try to drift towards Oblivion.
Gata chanted higher, and channeled more power, but that caused her stupid ring to vibrate. It vibrated so loudly it could be heard through the chanting and the crying.
She started to cry, she failed in hiding her pain, but thankfully, having her friends around her gave her the strength necessary to go on and finish the spell.
Finally she had enough strength to bind the soul into the locket, but Hunts' darkness was constantly trying to pull his soul into the emptiness. So Gata decided to leave the locket with Donvyn overnight. She felt that if the vampire could channel his memories into the locket, Hunts would have more strength to fight and stay with us.

Now she is sad, and tired, and she must rest and prepare herself, for she feels that all that is happening right now is just the first sign that a hurricane is about to come...

She trusts the Divine Plan, but she is so scared...

Argh! Gata is so angry!
First the day was fine, Gata sent Xel away to look for Maja, and then she helped a fang to get healthy, also this one had a chance to explain herself do Krynger, who called her friend, which made her really really happy!
Then she went hunting and was all great. She then met Beth who was injured, but her beautiful friend is so strong and didn't complain at all about it.
Ji and the others convinced Beth to stay and drink, and that was fun. It really was.

But then, Xel returned, she learned that the reason she was feeling so tired the whole day even though she was feeding and drinking was because Xel being away from her only consumed her power.
She first asked Arisel to allow the dremora inside the clan house and then she asked Beth for a dark soul gem, where Xel could make a home for himself while this one did not summon him. Otherwise she would send him back to oblivion and that would cause the dremora's destruction...
If she hadn't promised to him that she would keep him safe she would have sent him back the moment she got her senses back and realized what terrible mistake she had done...

After she safely put Xel inside the soul gem, she charged herself up and went to where Donvyn was still holding Hunts' body.
Gata did the spell as she learned in Hunts' journal. She sang Hunts' soul and mended it back into his body, it was so difficult!
She could feel the thunderous presence in the room, trying to escape as she took it out of the locket, she prayed that Donvyn's and Hunts' bond was strong and used the vampire's presence as an anchor. She was sure she wouldn't be able to do it properly, but it seems as everything went fine. Her finger's broke again, but she was already prepared for the pain and made herself a numbing spell beforehand. Also, the joy of seeing Hunts-with-magick alive made the pain seem so unimportant!
She left the couple and Hunts' other friends to see him, and she left to mend herself. She was so exhausted...
That being said, her lack of strength afterwards gave the Dremora a chance to get out of the gem by himself. Which off course he did. Argh!

Gata tried not to mind him and have some drinks as she got herself strong again to try the healing chants she been learning on her fingers.
As she was drinking, Jo'Karim approached her and they drank together. He finally took his hood off, Gata never noticed how handsome that one really is...
They were drinking, and Gata was chatting with him as well as keeping an eye on Xel, who seemed to be making new friends, when he mumbled something about a bet, and about money... He got up and kissed Gata!
Gata was shocked and wasn't able to react as he ran away afterwards... Khajiit is not even sure how to feel about it.
She means, he kissed her because of a bet, so she shouldn't care too much about it, she knows...
But... Gata is not used to kissing or being kissed, she just isn't... And...
Oh, what the oblivion! She should as well have some fun, she thinks... but... Bah! Enough of this.
Going on, after being surprised by Jo'Karim's lips she got Xel to look for Tilano...
After he left she took a nap... When she started to feel weak again and he hadn't yet returned, she went looking for him.
She found him talking to Tilano in the middle of town. Xel got sucked into the soul gem as her magik got weaker, and Tilano then presented her with the most difficult choice:
He admitted that Lands was with him, and he said that in order to save her, Gata would have to give him a boy named Vollas, who Gata learned is the obnoxious kid who kicked Hunts' body!
Gata now is searching for a way out of this choice, but she is ready to face the consequences of sending Xel after the boy in case she can't find a different solution.
Arisel, John Wolf and Lu were there and kept pressuring Gata into giving Lands up. Well, they said Gata couldn't have the boy and that they would save Lands either way.
Gata can't understand why would they save a kid who only brought harm!
She is so lost... She wishes someone would come and save her. Or shed a light on her problems.
But the Divine does not want Gata happy. Gata is their tool, and she is supposed to do what they mean for her to do...

She can't stand this library no more, she is tired. Maybe the Gods will answer her if she goes in the woods and eats some mushrooms and some frogs... She wonders what will happen to her now that she is a wolf.
Will she die?
She hopes not. She can't go until she finds Lands. Only then.
The plan is to save Lands, bind Xel to someone else so he won't kill the world and then eat a red frog stuffed with imp stools, maybe with some Wasp sauce. Who knows.

Please Shegorath, take away these maddening thoughts!
This one hopes these grim thoughts leave her mind soon, for it is scary to think those things... She does not want to go.
She won't....

The plan is to save Lands, bind Xel to someone else and go on with Gata's life...

Dear Notebook.
Gata sucks.
She is the worst.
She will await her punishment, and she won't go away, for Lands needs her, but...
Khajiit can never forgive herself, she thinks.

How could she be so impulsive? So blind... so...
Just the thought of leaving Lands another day to suffer makes her sick on her stomach...
But it doesn't mean that she should have done that to the kid...

This one guesses... She can never change... She was a killer once, she remains a killer now...
The difference is that in the past she never ever took an innocent soul... Unlike yesterday.

What will she do now? How will she.. how will she live with herself?
She feels her chest trying to freeze. She feels her former self trying to emerge...
Gata can't let it happen... She must take care of Lands. And find Maja... And...
She is afraid of not being able to feel anymore, if she let's Sombra in again...

Finally Gata is FREE!
She hasn't been writting much cuz she is enjoying her freedom!

Sorry notebook!

Notes not to forget about:
-Some assassins apparently came to town, Gata would stop them, but she was on a frenzy and couldn't control herself that well.
-She met the poor Lorys, that got thrown in jail because Milo cheated on Lu and decided to lie about it to her.
-Lu HIT Gata. She apologized afterwards, but Gata changed. She understands that Lu is having a hard time believing she is laying with an evil bigger than Xel, but argh! She hit Gata!
Gata!!!
Moving on!
-Lands is acting weird, what is making this one freak out. She hopes she can save Lands this time, without sacrificing anymore children.
-Stripes. Gata met the wonderful cub named Stripes. He is so cute. Gata will be sure to protect him. Maybe the Gods sent him on her way as a second chance, a way to prove that what happened with Vollas was just an isolated incident.

that is all, Gata must go enjoy life now.

Gata feels the need to note down some stuff that happened so she won't forget.
Anyways.
She is a guard now. She tried to arrest two citizens but they didnt listen and made fun of her.
But she doesn't care, they will have what they deserve, she will make sure.
Gata also finally saw Hunts. Who now hates her. She saw Lands inside his mind, and saw Vollas' death...
He shot her, after she gave him his book back. But she is not mad, she deserves that from him.
She really killed that boy afterall...

He got arrested and Gata put a ward, but he managed to escape... She ran after him and he shocked her.
She can feel her insides tingle still after that.
But Gata will never give up on a friend. Never.
This one decided Hunts could be free. She is a guard, afterall. @#@$@#$@#$% them.
They lashed on Sylva, even though he came forth, like a slave.
They /mudered/ Magik.
Magik...

Magik appeared in front of Gata. She saw her. She swears!
She begged for Gata to save her.
This one must go and ...

<*As the adrenaline tones down, Gata begins feeling the pain in her burned hands. She drops her quill and starts howling in pain. She curses herself for not being a good healer as her healing chant fails. She'd have to ask Brilho for a healing once she saw her. For now, bandages and some balm should suffice.*>

Oh, Gata forgot to add!
Bhidul confessed his feeling for Gata!
Gata doesn't know how to answer, since he killed Afer's father and well, just...
is so scary!

This one must think and ponder.

Dear diary? Is that how she should start it?

Sorry, diary. Yeah, that is better.

Gata hasn't written much this days... but she has been experiencing things that she cannot put on paper.
She now has open access to the beautiful spirit realm and she can wander freely through it...
This one hears the spirits calling to her, and she hears the song of their lives... Even the darkest one has their unique beauty and she has been so glad that she is now able to see it... Despite how she got them.
On her first walk, she noticed a soul was following her... It felt like Ubira, but she is not sure...
As the soul kept following her, she began to be more and more aware of Ubira's scent and his voice when he was alive... This one is so sorry, little brother, she should never have left you, you were just a kid that believed in Iraju's lies...
The soul followed her out of the Spirit Realm. She felt his anger and hurt and confusion and before she could think, she trapped him inside her favorite book: Goodnight Mundus. She hopes to figure out a plan. Maybe she can bring him back when he is not so angered...

Also... She was... they had her... She tried to help Arquen but instead they... captured her... they experimented on her, did things to her... she is not sure how long it lasted. They tell her it had been 3 to 4 days tops... but...

Gata... Gata doesn't wanna talk about this anymore... Let's remember the good memories...

In her wanderings she found Magik... the first time it was by accident, she didn't expect to find Magik there... in that forsaken place, actually, Gata didn't even expect that when she tried to escape that only her soul would... So as this one was feeling lost, wandering inside the spirit realm, she saw her!
But her friend asked for /her/ help...
Gata didn't understand very well what she needed, and just as Magik explained, Gata was rescued by Kade, Arquen, Jo'Karim and Battlecat (he carried Gata in his arms!!!!) ((oh Gods.))

The second time she encountered her friend, Gata went looking for Magik.
When she found her, Magik who is such a troubled and beautiful soul, gave this one a list of things.
She will try to bring her friend back. Magik will once again walk this land by Gata's side, and Gata won't be left alone anymore!
Although she is not sure how she will get all the items in the list, some of them involve killing and Gata doesn't kill innocents. At least she tries to avoid it...

Here is the list:

- Magik's sword (has Magik's soul in it)
- Her ashes/body (Hunts has them)
- Body with a soul inside (sacrifice)
- Magik said something about a ritual. She is now at a Mages guild, researching the lore. There is nothing really useful here... Why would they be so afraid of Soul Magic? Should she see an argonian guild and ask /them/?

Gata isn't sure about the sacrifice at all, but she will find a way...
The Sacrifice must be of someone either really nasty or maybe someone in the verge of death? If the person was already dying, will Gata be really a bad khajiit to release the person of their pain just a few moments sooner? Maybe that was that person's purpose all along, or maybe if they agree with it... Gata needs to do some serious praying.
While she thinks of a way, this one also has encountered this skooma dealers. She approached them yesterday by the entrance of Dune to get some of it for her religious purposes. This one didn't even have to see it to know it was rotten, the worst quallity. This could drive you insane just by smelling it, she was sure. No one should suffer through it. That scum! They taint the name of the sacred tool and make the stiffs all nasty about it, making it ilegal and all.
They are in a group of 3, but this one is not alone. Brilho and Patossaurus are always around and they are stronger and more agile than any person she knows. Although Brilho has been hurt real bad, she has been trying to get dominance over this group of twilights by the march... And also this one can not forget that they didn't try to save her, though, when she was kidnapped.
She must go now, she will try to write more as things develop...

((Edited the city to be more accurate to her story and some typos.))

Journal.

Gata brings updates.

Brilho is severely injured. Her left wing is totally broken and Gata is not sure how to heal her.
She was going to fetch a healer to help her friend, but Brilho took off into the sunset and Gata hasn't seen her since.
She tried tracking the twilight, but she couldn't. The increased Daedric activities in the march have tainted the land and make it really hard to track a single Daedra. ((I must state that Gata didn't actually go after the Twilight because they had a huge fight IC about Brilho leaving Gata behind with the Dark Brotherhood))
Gata now feels so bad for not trying harder to find her friend... This one now is terrified, she hopes Brilho comes back soon... She will go after Brilho now, and see if she...

Oh! Brilho has arrived! She seems safe. Didn't wanna talk to Gata, though, but brought this one this book as, what she said herself "a peace token".

The book is amazing, it was just what Gata needed! The book is called The Totems of Hircine and tells Gata about all these artifacts she'd be interested in!
One of the items described in the book is similar to that ring /Tilano/ gave her.
She hopes to never see that one again!

Well, Gata also gave Brilho a restoring potion she had brewed herself this morning while she was practicing in the Alchemy hub here in Dune.
She has been trying to do some potions. It is /not/ that different at all from cooking, though, so Gata is fine. She had trouble with distilling, but that she will try to find a teacher instead of doing herself. So this one has been trying potions that are more simple, yes? She did her first couple of health restoring potions and she also made one of her own fashion: As she made one of the intended health potions, she added a dash of moon sugar, and then, as the potion cooked, she directed one of those fancy lightnings she suddenly knows how to call ((Still unaware that a part of Hunts' soul is within her, though))... She didn't mean to do it, but she was so tired, and suddenly it felt as if she wasn't herself anymore. But it happened and the potion became slightly diferent. Gata didn't taste it yet, she doesn't know what it does.

Anyway. She decided to make residence here in Dune. The city is quite empty, which for this one is the best, she really needs a sanctuary, and after they learned it was Brilho the twilight that drove a Daedric attack from the town (Note: Gata must not forget to get that story out of her!), they even asked them to stay longer and lent them a nice and big house for all of them. Gata is really proud of having such nice minion friends, she had no idea Brilho had a heroic side to her, she has to confess she was always a bit scared of the matriarch...
And this one thought she had left Gata behind because she wanted to be dominant and mememe. Gata is so ashamed now. She never asked her friends if they needed her help, she is always wanting them to help her... This one vows to pay more attention to the ones that love her back.

Well, she should move on with her memories before she forgets them!
So, this one managed to sneak up on those dealers, Patossaurus creating a diversion, while this one and Brilho jumped from the rocks and killed them.
The killing and the blood made this one go into a frenzy, she couldn't help herself and turned wolf. She devoured the bandits, they tasted awfully, but she couldn't help herself. She even ate a couple of bones... This is so embarrassing...
Afterwards, she changed back to human, and started picking up their belongings and destroying their Skooma.
She found this parchment among their things:

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This seems to be a recipe for Skooma, but since theirs was tainted, she thinks they either did something wrong or there is something missing or else about the recipe... But Gata has been practicing her potion skills and learning all the books she finds on Alchemy, so she can make Crystallized Moonlight herself and be able to always have her religious tools at hand.

She then went back to S'ren, this one thought she would find people to help her with her brewing, but she got caught up by Ali turning into a girl, hahaha she laughs still about that! And also got lured into a drinking game with Ice Eye, who by the way she'd like to approach about how to make things.
Gata got drunk, she is forced to admit. She had to quickly leave the house to throw up, and she lost the game.
She was going back to Dune, the next day and decided to stop at rawl'kha's mage's guild and ask for books on soul bending. As expected they frowned at her and told her to go look elsewhere.
Disappointed, she went to the tavern to get some ale, and actually had a nice time. She met Tal'Raja, who told her about a sanctuary for the chosen people, and she also met with Ji who was also interested in Tal'Raja's talk.
They spoke more about other things that Gata won't add here for now, for she doesn't wanna jinx anything, but Tal had to leave because her little cub was crying.

Gata and Ji stayed behind, talking and then they parted ways. Gata went back to Dune and got back to practicing her potions, but an idea struck her: She could make S'ren be the sanctuary it was, if she tried, she could try to convince people, or at least find them a hideout or haven... This one went back to see if she could have more ideas, maybe share them with someone, but as she arrived, she felt a nudge in her sides and reached inside one of the many hidden pockets she makes in her outfits. In one of them she found a bloodied piece of paper, she actually rip it a little as she opened it.
There she read a call for help, from Tal'Raja, it seemed.

Gata searched for a healer, but none were there. She then asked Elros, who very kindly went with her and Ma'Zura who also very promptly went to help too.
She tracked the vampire by her blood scent and when they arrived, Gata started her Song of Clouds while Elros did his best to heal the wounded. Ellie was there, and one named Rigg. Also another wolf was there, but Gata couldn't interact much, she was in a trance as soon as she begun her song, and when she got back he was better and Elros was tending him. She went for supplies and when she came back he was better, it seemed, only unconscious.
Gata made a fire to boil some water as Elros requested and then Rigg requested Gata to sing again for Tal, who was very beat.
She did it and it worked, but Tal began to lose control and as Gata entered her mind she saw it was all broken. She asked She-she for help, and he came and promised to help. He also had some trick in mind, but Gata is sure it will be fun.
After a while, Tal was better so Elros left, then Rigg and Ma'zura had a chat, she must note that this Rigg requested Ma'zura didn't tell the Twin Tails Company about him being there, and he took Tal'Raja back to their home, followed by Ellie and the wolf also left...
Gata and Zura then returned to S'ren-ja, Gata couldn't leave Zura to return alone, since he can't fend for himself.
As they arrived, Gata gave him some excuse and darted back to her home in Dune, where she slept in her new comfortable bed for hours and hours.
She hopes no one followed her here...

((edited! ))

Loredas, 4. ((Gata doesn't know about months and years, though))

Dear journal.

She had this dream of a woman... this woman came to her and said a lot of stuff that this one can't remember exactly what it was...
But Gata woke up with her fur on end. She felt something was coming, but she didn't know what it was...
Later during the day, she would remember moments of the dream, but nothing the woman said...
Off course Gata shrugged it off, for she thought that, no matter what it was, it would be in the Divine will for it to happen or not.
So this one went on with practicing her brewing, mixing herbs together and testing them on herself to see what they do... None of them had effect so far, so she decided to try that recipe she found, but she threw it right away, she only made it to see if she could. Well, she can, but it smells poison.

Going to the local tavern, this one overheard a group of people speaking... At first she got curious, because they spoke of a place called something of hearts, where it seemed to have been a place for great knowledge, specially in soul magic, Gata noted down what she could hear about itk, it was actually quite neat, one of them was giving another one directions of how to get there, so Gata thinks she will go and see for herself if she can find anything useful there... But wow, they looked so dangerous and so cool! They were approached by a young khajiit that said she had always wanted to meet real "undaunted". Gata thought of going there and showing them that this one is really dauntless, but she remained quiet as she heard them saying about some skooma dealers being found in Bandaari the other day, and Gata heard them mention that the Skooma they made was the worst kind, made of leafs.
A big and beautifully tanned altmer said she hated the thing, but the khajiit sat across her said something about "When you use the right parts of the shade, you get an actually very good boost.".
This one would have listened to more, but, it pains her to admit, the small bosmer girl with a devious look in her eyes looked at her with an expression that made Gata want to run for her life.

Well, that was some useful piece of information right there. But Gata is not so sure which part of the shade is best, so she will experiment with the entire plant.
Gata then went to look for some of it, this one went back home, got a large pot and left for a walk in the march with Pajeh... She found some along the march, but she is afraid that she found them by accident, and is not sure if there is more around.
She found some by a bridge, near raw'kha...
This one quickly grabbed the plant, roots and all and planted it on a pot. She was going to take it to her home in Grahtwood, but by the time she got there, the nightshade could have rotten, or something, since this one is not good in that area...

The guard activity was intense, though, so Gata had to cross herself and Pajeh to the spirit realm, and smuggle the plant through there.
It was a very short distance, but to bring another scentient life into the real without it being their time to be there, to bring our entire bodies and possessions into that plane and take us out consumed a lot of Gata's energy. She fell asleep almost as soon as she got out of there and safely into her home.
She slept for 3 days straight.
During that sleep she had another vision of the woman. She couldn't remember what the woman said, though... She could only remember being with that woman on a very dark and ancient place, they were sitting together, talking. Gata spoke too, but she couldn't remember what she said...
Oh! And the Nightshade is still alive! Yay!
She must go see if she can buy a lab set or something... This one will return with news!

Tirdas, 7

Dear Journal,

Gata has been through the most hard trial she has yet had to face. Today she writes from her new life, her new self, her new path...

First, she will go back and tell it from where she last wrote here.
After being comatose, this one proceeded to her normal life. She realized the problem it would be to brew crystallized moonlight on a public place, so she went to town and found a vendor in the Mages' guild, she put in an order for a small lab of her own. The seller was really helpful and gave this one a discount in what he called "Purse lab". A smaller, but still complete lab, that Gata can easily assemble and reassemble and put away on her purse and carry it everywhere. It costed her all her money, though.
Gata had gathered a small fortune, that she saved to one day make a sanctuary for her friends and the special ones. She doesn't have money to buy food anymore. But she has no more need for that, she heard in her new aspect she could go without money for quite an eternity...
The price of the lab? 80.000 gold coins. Expensive, but Gata doesn't care much. She feels it was worth it. The lab will arrive tomorrow, according to the salesman. Gata will have to find a cave, or something, where she can assemble it, so her dome in Dune doesn't get dangerous for khajiit.

After spending all that gold, Gata went back home and went around her things, gathering comfortable clothes, parchment, food... She wanted to go research on how to bring Magik back as soon as possible.
So this one went to get ready for a penniless trip.In the process, she found one of the potions she made to experiment on her brewing. Khajiit thought to have taken all those potions already, but she shrugged it off, and thought, why not try this before leaving?
She took the potion and instantly she regreted it. This one's skin felt like it was burning, her head felt like it would explode. She could hear distant laughter and screams, which she later found out it were her own...
It felt so bad... When the torment was over, this one realized her fate. She had lost her gift.
The Gods had forsaken her. Oh the pain. She felt like she would die.
This one can't even begin to describe what it was to feel thrown out, like a stale bread. She felt punished, and as she calmed down, she remembered one thing about her dreams: That woman had said "Brace yourself, change is coming".

Desolated, with the certain that the Gods hated her, she left to the ancient school place, hoping the rumors about it would be true, and that she wouldn't come out alive. And if she did, that she at least would have answers... Maybe they were punishing her for thinking about sacrificing a soul for Magik... Maybe... Maybe they are finally making her pay for not being there for her mother...
So she went there. She was so sad she couldn't see the spirits, she couldn't hear them talk to her, she is afraid to admit that she almost lost her faith...
But she managed to get inside the place, that looked so much like a crypt... there she found loads of shelfs and books, so she found a nice corner and grabbed some books to begin her reading.
Not being a wolf anymore, this one couldn't smell that well, she couldn't smell them around her, her being sad, couldn't see them there, telling her they had a plan.
Lost in her reading, she heard a cough. She looked up and there was Herfi. That vampire Khajiit. So pretty.
She looked at Gata and knew instantly that she was sad, and they... spoke. Herfi took Gata's mind away from her pain, and the books, she might admit. Hehehe.
The vampire sucked on Gata's blood and Gata did the same, in the heat of the moment, she didn't think about what it meant. It just felt... right.

Other things happened, but this one can't even write about them, or she will have a heart attack.
Wait. Damn. If her heart doesn't beat, how would she? Hahaha, silly Gata.

But hehe, anyway, as they were calming down, this one realized she had no pulse anymore. She felt, no, she didn't feel her heart beat, she couldn't hear it anymore.
At first this one got really confused, she thought for a moment her gloom prayers had been answered and she had become a ghost herself. But no. It wasn't that.

Turns out the Gods didn't forsake her... they just wanted her to be on a different path now!
Oh Divine, thank you so much for trusting and choosing again this humble child of yours!
She is so sorry for almost giving in and losing herself in the grief, she should have known better! She should have had better faith to accept her destiny, be it as a chose, be it as a regular person.
She is so grateful for all of it...
Ecstatic, she felt the urge to pray and commune with her Gods. She needed to thank them, but as she was tired, she went to a coffin with Herfi, and prayed there, before sleeping.
She had a dream, and in that dream she saw that woman again. She said her name was Lamae, and that Gata was her chosen now. She said "Gata, you have been in the shadows and in the light, and have been hurt by both, but you survived. I chose you as my daughter, welcome to your new life. You are now eternal, like your brother's and sister's, and like them, will feed on the mortals. I hope you understand better our purpose and helps keep my children safe, your new family." or something like that.
Gata can't remember exactly, for she was asleep, but that is what she understood.

She woke up after that, and it was still sunny out, but Gata had to leave, she left that gorgeous vampire, Herfi with a kiss, trying not to awake her pretty mistress, the one responsible for bringing her new gift, to whom this one shall always be grateful, and it just shows Gata that she is right, they are the chosen people!
Anyway, so she left and came back home, to get the lab and write this down, before it lost meaning...

Right, the lab. Gata must go now and take what she's payed for. She hopes people wont notice her pale skin... Dang! Ok, think fast, Gata, how can we conceal that our fur has lost it's color now?

Ah! An ilusion chant! But it would work temporarily... Mhmmm
She would have time to only quickly grab the lab and leave... Let's hope that is that.

Tirdas, 7

Gata heard about the crime rate in S'ren.
She sent out a note to her friends that she knows are of the chosen kind.
She also sent out a note to the ones she suspects.
This one hopes they will come, she hopes to avoid innocent blood being shed and our kind being persecuted.

May the Divines bless the meeting.
It will me at Middas, 8. After the sunset.
She was very careful about it so there is no way in oblivion someone could find out about this, unless they were reading this journal or were told by the other one's...

Dear Diary,

It's been a while since Gata wrote, but her life is always full of things, and she doesn't always have time to write... ((omg she will even brag about herself in her journal))
After hearing about all the crime, Gata returned to S'ren. This one has made residence in a cave just behind the Clan Mother's...
Anyway, she tried to hold a meeting and quit the crime, but a very annoying lizard started to threaten her and her kin!
Oh it was so bad, she wished she had eaten that damned lizard!
But it's ok.
So onto good things, first batch of flower skooma was a success, she made it and used it in some of her praying rituals, it was amazing, such fragrance! She is working on root skooma right now, it seems good too.
About bringing Magik back: she's stolen Magik's sword, and gotten her ashes from Hunts, she only needs the sacrifice now!
Oh!
This one has two new family members: Anna, the pretty vampire mage, this one's daughter in blood! And then there is Jundara, the wise one. He is reaaally old and has seen so many things in his life, such a great member for the family! Gata just hopes she doesn't get in trouble for giving them her gift...

Besides that, some people moved out of town, it seems that the Sugar Claw left, but they left Ri'sari, still in a coma upstairs... She doesn't know what to think about that, but she has seen the alpha in the spirit world, his soul seems ready to leave.

John Wolf was the only one that said goodbye to Gata, and she will always remember that of all of those people, he was her only true friend. After all, friends say goodbye to friends, don't they?

She doesn't really wanna think about that, and she must keep her head on the good part: The old house is empty... maybe Gata can get money and buy it for her family to live together? She still doesn't know what to do.
The clinic is empty too, which means she can get her sacrifice with no problems!

Also, she is very happy to say that her and Ali are friends again. With Kade never being around anymore, Ali has had room to show how much he's matured since the wolf day, and she sees she can trust him again, even if sometimes he is surrounded by... /babies/.
Ainoath came back also, he didn't change a thing. He got arrested for yelling in the middle of town and throwing water at the guard... It was... interesting. But then something happened! Someone got inside his sell and murdered him! They murdered him!
After preserving the body with some balms and potions this one had, she is now trying to find his soul in the other world... She knows he is there, but she can't find him... She hopes he wants to come back...

Right! Yesterday the Clan Mother Dro'Jhala told us about the food shortage and she let Gata lead a fishing expedition, it was /amazing/! Gata caught so many fish she is sure we will eat for days!

Well, so far those are all the news... She is sorry for such a rushed writing, but she let her moon sugar boiling in the lab and she must go finish a new skooma batch.

Notes at the bottom of the page:

Mistress Herfi has been coming to town more often and that just makes Gata's heart beat faster. She can't help but become happy to have more opportunities to gaze upon her beauty.
She met Zek, and is very fond of him already. He is weird, but Gata is too, so she hopes they can be really good friends!
And Bhi and her had a talk and maybe they'll try to, you know, be closer. But, she is scared. Bhi is too ruthless sometimes and he is also related to Kath, who was giving Gata the goosebumps the other day. And has such a big mouth...
Gata told Bhi that she is not one for monogamy, and she hopes she doesn't hurt him, she really likes him, he is one of the few that accept her for who she really is.

Note2: Gata's new friend, the mute vampire Zi-Xi is afraid of water, and fish.

sren has become quiet and the move has had this one in a bind but he will go with the flow :) warm sands gata

Sundas,

Dear Diary.

Gata is sorry she hasn't been around to write lately... but she just couldn't bring herself to it... This one does not wish to validate her fears...
She has met Ro'John. That khajiit stole Gata's heart. Or so to speak. He has such tasty blood... She has told Bhi about him and Bhi understood. Now we are all mates, and this is indeed the best of news. How could Gata ever deserve so much love? Her heart is almost overwhelmed with all the love she feels for both of them...
Off course her happiness had to come with a "but": This one is pregnant. It seems. How can vampires get pregnant without magic use? There was no wizard when we conceived. The baby is definitely Ro'John's, but Gata hopes Bhi is as much a father to the cub as John would be. Being pregnant terrifies this one...
She is also a bit sad because this one loves John for what he is, and he is a soldier. John needs to go fight for what he believes, and that is one of the things that make Gata love him so dearly... But that also means that he is constantly leaving her... constantly in danger...
It's been a while since he left the last time, didn't return yet... This time, he left without saying goodbye.
She had to track him down in a camp to get from him that he was leaving for war... How could he do that?
This one asked for his explanation... the khajiit said he didn't wanna hurt Gata, and that she was having a good time with Bhidul...
That brings Gata to another problem: How can she have a child with someone that disappears into the mortal dangers of a war out of... jealousy?
She is heartbroken, but, this one has even bigger issues... The moon sugar on top of the sweetroll of @$#$$%: Nellie has come to examine Gata. The holy woman said the child is barely alive and that this one has a choice... Either Gata has to get rid of her immortallity, or she has to let the child die... How could she ever chose such a thing?
Would she lose everything because of a kid she doesn't even know? Would she risk losing Anna and Jundara? Even though they weren't that much concerned for Gata... but... even though... she loves them... she already lost Maja, her momma... Ubira even... She is so sad... Would she sacrifice an innocent soul?
So Now this one is writting from Bal Foyen. She came to see the snow and find herself...
Until now she hasn't found anything but clues and hints... She heard some people mention Iraju's name in a tavern, what could this mean?
Gata will write more soon, she hears people approaching her cave.



Note: Bhidul is now her childe as well, besides being her mate. Gata's family grows by the hour, that should make her smile a bit in the middle of all this mess...

((tear stained pages))
Tirdas,

Diary!

This one has found out the most disturbing things!
Nanako is alive! And she has told Gata the most weird things about her past...
She is not sure what to believe... How did Nanako find her? And what is this about Iraju not being this one's real father?
Gata is sure this is all lies, it can't be. She couldn't be the produce of some creepy experiment a worm cult was doing.
No matter it explains a lot, she refuses to believe this.
Seems Nanako is a Medic. She heals and protects with her spells and she has found Gata's essence. She said she had been always waiting for this one to find her...
Nanako also said Gata shouldn't worry about the cub. It's gonna be fine, but it is not at the same time.
She said... She said it was Gata's destiny to create this progeny. It was her legacy. She said the cub won't be the same as other cubs and that this one should be careful, as it will be singular in all manners and most won't understand and won't accept it...
Gata asked what she meant, and she said something about Gata being the start of a bloodline and that it would be a new era for all her kin... She doesn't understand, what she means... This can't be true, not after what she learned...
This one needed proof of what Nanako is saying. The girl said she shall show this one what she can, but it's up to Gata if she'll believe her or not.
So Nanako took her to Nanako's home. There she showed Gata a water mirror, where this one could see Iraju. All his steps, all he was doing. Seems he had been still working for that cult...
Gata knows what the mirror shows is true, she can feel it in herself... Nanako told Gata to think hard on a question and pray to the mirror, and it would show her the truth.
This one made many questions, and what she saw terrified her.
Nanako was saying the truth, and even worse... Gata is... Gata was... made with... magik... They /drugged/ Rakka! They had her take a potion without her knowledge and then she and a... /bosmer/ did things!
Her father is not even a... khajiit!
Gata is the unnatural product of magic! Of a worm cult!
To know the purpose of her birth was to serve as food for /Molag Bal/...
Gata is so sad...
Everything she believed was a lie?
How can all this be?
And to think all the time Iraju had only gotten with Rakka to kill her... Gata was an experiment... how could that be?
Rakka died for nothing...

Turdas.

Journal.

Gata is coming back home!
This one was sad at first, thinking her life was a lie, but Nanako showed her the truth!
Gata is /truly/ chosen! More than anyone! To think she is the child of magik, that means she is a miracle!
She is a miracle making miracle! Since her baby according to Nellie and Nako is a miracle!
Yes! The Gods wouldn't allow Gata to be if she wasn't in their plans... but... was wasting Rakka also in their plans?
She misses Bhi and John... She must tell them she loves them before she loses both...
If Ro'Johns priority is his soldier career, Gata shall respect it, and she will help him as she can. After all, her priority is her own destiny, so it would be hypocrisy of her to ask him otherwise. He and Bhi are amazing Khajiit and they do their best to understand Gata, the least she could do for the men she loves is extend them the same understanding and patience...
Now Gata must go. Nanako arrived and we are going together to S'ren-ja. After we arrive, Nako said she will go look for Maja, she said she saw the khajiit in her mirror, and that is something she must do alone.
Gata wanted to go with her, but she told this one it would be too dangerous for the cub, and right now, Gata should prioritize it. The cub will be born special, but Gata will have to take special potions and feed on extra blood in order to maintain it. Also she can't do much hard labor... So Nako shall find Maja and bring her back before the baby is born, so we can be a family again!
Gata's got a recipe for a special potion that Nako said will sustain the mortal side of the cub. The extra blood is for the immortal part... Well, khajiit must go now.

Notes at the bottom of the pages: - never leave body unattended during spirit walk, dont wanna be possessed again!
- in a few months, this one should use Tal's necklace, as the winter coat excuse wont be as good anymore...
- Gata is the head of the mages faction, so let's hope this one does a good job...
- Ash has given this one money to expand the moonlight business, bought a new lab set and expanded to the sewers.
- jun and anna sitting in a tree
- jun is also caring for the lab
- give prudence more moonlight for her to sell in dune
- Iraju must die!

Journal.

What the heck happened? Gata is scared! Someone went through her things!
She found this note, with a flower in the middle of her pages...

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What does that note even mean? What phoenix? Could it be that the what she heard of those criminals she ate in Dune is true?
She doesn't want to die... She just wants to have her baby and care for her family...
She is terrified, so she checked on her stuff to make sure nothing was missing. All her Soul Savers are gone! Even Ubira's book! Why would they do that?
She must get Ubira back... Khajiit won't lose her brother again!
What if now they are going to try and kill her? She knows how prejudiced the common folk is! Now she will die because of their ignorance!
What is wrong about helping souls and bringing her friends back?
((tear stains on the page))
This one will warn her family of what happened, they should be aware and have the choice to flee if they think it's best.
They shouldn't be harmed, she will make sure they are safe!

This one also went to the lab, to see if they had gotten in there.
All her amulets are gone!! It's fine, they were all fake... It kinda serves Gata right for taking advantage of the commoners... But she was just keeping ballance... for every good deed she does, she must perform a bad one, or she will be one of those empty and stuck beings, that don't change, that don't evolve...

Also, Gata is sure she had more gold, also but the records seem to be right, so maybe it's the hormones for the pregnancy



May the Moons watch over She must pray for the Gods to protect her and her loved ones... And she will track Ubira.
Maybe if she finds him she can find this phoenix. Gata will come prepared...