A series of letters (Haj'Nar and Alijham)

(i wouldnt be surprised to see Wyndhenir answer one of these sometime >_>)


There are so many things one can know, and so many things one can learn. I have learned so much from you, and know so much about you, yet I find myself never in contact with you. It intrigues me as to why, for the answer is not in the reaches of my mind.

Maybe out there I am missing the point, but here inside of my head I know that writing is not a valid way of speech with others, but in many cases, it does what it must, for one can not always see their audience's face, as in this case, for we are both busy.

I have little to ask and less to say, but I am simply wondering if you are well at the moment. You are one of dramatic events and both emotional empowerment and emotional suffering, which gives fair judgment to wonder your well being.

Of most sincerity,
Haj'Nar

-laying in front of Alijham's door

Haj,

I've been wondering how you are as well. Thank you for reaching out to me.

I've been absolutely wonderful. Vulkwasten has done so much for me, and it truly is a gift. I'm glad I stayed here, as things are absolutely apeshit in Baandari..

How are you? Where have you been lately? It's been a while. We should go hunting sometime.

In good health and humor,

Alijham

P.S. This probably sounds weird, but you must let me groom your fur sometime.

I am adequate, one could say. I used to hunt and gaze at the stars and sleep in the morning, and then wake up, and do it all over again. Although I never got sick of it, I still decided that I needed a change my ways at the least slightly. I've been looking into more in depth woodworking than just for combat items, I've made it somewhat of a hobby, carving and shaving simple logs into things of a sort of art.

And it is quite good that you have placed yourself away from Baandari, I am most assured it would not be a suitable place for a father of two, though I myself haven't been there in a lengthy duration of time for it was not suitable for someone who appreciates the calm the way I do, and, I didn't really tell the owners of the inn I was leaving most likely indefinitely, but that is besides the point.

I have been traveling somewhat, like I used to long ago. I've been in the Daggerfall territory, running about hunting not only the animals of High Rock, but it's history and secrets of old. Recently however, I have been in Grahtwood, revisiting places I've been in my past back when I was a leader of a small pack. I do agree, we should hunt again.

Of adequate sincerity,
Haj'Nar

Post Scriptum: My fur is my own, and decisions of it are mine to make, whether you groom it or not is not yet decided, but it is definitely not a must.

Post Post Scriptum:How is wyndhenir coming along? and I'm sure Ylir is still impeccable?

-laying in front of Alijham's door

I missed your ongoing mouth. You never shut up, and that's probably why we're such good friends--I don't either.

Woodworking is never something I could get into, but a fantastic craft. I applaud you for practicing something new. That's not really like you to actually try something interesting (I'm joking, obviously).

How is Daggerfall? I hear it's beautiful this time of year. I don't travel like I used to with the clinic, Elsynia, and the kids. I admit I miss it, but it doesn't compare to them one bit. I'd rather be nowhere else but here, where I am loved and even admired.

With reasonable sincerety,

Alijham

P.S. To your P.S: The kids are fantastic, both of them. Wyndhenir is getting much better with his behavior and I am still working out his mental issues. Ylir has taken to dance.

Most suggest otherwise, that my mouth never opens, maybe its more because you happen to approach me often and others do not.

It isn't exactly new, I used to make bows and had some experience in working with shields. I do aggree that I do not try many interesting things, or rather many things at all, even though it was not sincere.

Daggerfall is plain fields and meek forests, I must rather be in Valenwood with trees too large to climb, or Skyrim with snowy fields full of prey. Even Morrowind has very interesting mushrooms and peculiar ash resistant plants. But it is somewhat interesting to learn about, nothing specifically was of exceptional interest. I understand that want, though I doubt I've ever felt it, there is no permanent home for someone who hunts the unknown I presume.

I find it quite intriguing that after all our time we spent with one another, there has been so much that still goes unknown between us, vast spaces of empty knowledge and unspoken words. I don't know why I feel that way, I just, do.

With unfathomable sincerity,
Haj' Nar

Post scriptum to your post scriptum to my post scriptum:That is good, how old are they both?

-laying like a little bit to the side of Alijham's door

I've been there, but only briefly. It is rich with culture, but the buildings and residings of men are never so interesting of those of mer or the Nords. I remember you would always carve into that now of yours, though, yes.

There is much we don't know if one abother, but do we really need to know it? We know one another as people, and that's all that matters. I believe, at least. Knowing that you are a good and loyal friend to me is the dominating factor.

With I'm-not-going-to-think-of-a-fancy-word-to-go-with-it sincerety,

Alijham

P.S. To your P.S.'s P.S. And that P.S.'s children (Hircine bless their little souls): They are both absolutely wonderful. They have taken a great liking to Elsynia, and spend more time with her. I do hope someday another will come.

Architecture is simply a way to express your land and your world you make it in, if it is bland, as they are in Daggerfall, then so is the land it sits on, even bland buildings in interesting land look somewhat interesting if the environment around it is.

I differ with you there. Knowledge of others opens gates that lead to more in depth, more fascinating conversations, I feel that one cannot know unless told. Even I who can make the best of predictions am left without answers to fleeting questions time and time again when I talk to both strangers and friends. To show this, what have I said to you specifically that makes me a loyal and good friend for the foreseeable future? Actions are quick and simple, mind is only a small factor in what one does.

And the post scriptum may burn in oblivion, that's great though! I can see wanting another one, well I can see you wanting another one, I would never want 3 children if I were in your lack of shoes.

With egregious, elephantine, insurmountable sincerity, and yes it is spelled sincerity,
Haj'Nar

I suppose so, but it's not the most important factor of a person. It's the richness of their character.

Daggerfall is very beautiful, just not in comparison to the land of the elves or the nords in my opinion. There is nothing like hills and valleys of snow.

Sincerely,

Alijham

(I swear I knew that's how it was spelled)

PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSSASPAPPPSPPSPPSPS: You know me. I'll always want more children.

There is nothing as unique as the stories one can tell. One can only discribe character with a few words but you can see their character in such more depth, even the sides they don't normally show around you, when they tell you pieces of their past future and present. It shows trust, and it shows character, and it shows every inch of your inner self over time, the stories told are not the important part, it's what one learns from them, and what one can do knowing that, for the tellers sake, and for their own.

And of course, you are comparing nice to nicer, I doubt I'll go back to Daggerfall again though.

Sincerity of utmost,
Haj'Nar

-A strip of paper that says “PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSSASPAPPPSPPSPPSPS” with flames drawn all over it is attached

I agree, I suppose, but I can normally learn those things with mannerisms and such. I do enjoy hearing stories from others.

I prefer Wayrest to Daggerfall, the wealth is so abroad there. (And if you're planning on accidentally sticking your fingers in the next noble's back pocket, well.. they carry their things with them often)

Magnanimous sincerity,

Alijham

The picture was sent back, but with a scrabbly, badly drawn khajiit that resembled Haj flailing his arms in the fire

You are quite the sesquipedalian might I say, and I will acquiesce in that mannerisms work in learning character well enough.

I have been enjoying this woodworking, but I've noticed a flaw with working on art of wood. Theres no light within it. That sounds weird to say, but as I carve into the tans and browns of wood, I feel nothing of enlightenment, no knowledge gained, no mistakes to learn from, if I whittle the wrong way, I can just carve more and it looks satisfactory again. Once done with it, I stare at it, but it is simply an image of my mind, crooked in the way anything remade is if you look hard enough. Then I give it away to someone because I do not need a collection of chunks of wood, nor do I need them to be proficuous to me, for gold is not a concern. It feels like being in a dark room with no door, no reason to run for there is no way out and no reason to look because you cannot see. I just, I do it, to do it. I've never done that before, and I don't know quite why I am now.

Of unparagoned sincerity,
Haj'Nar

I understand that feeling. It was like that when I took classes at the Bard's College (although I was expelled after a few months for behavioral issues). It was like I was just learning things I already knew, but in a more proper way, and it wasn't beneficial. I didn't even really like it. Of course, it sounds nice to say I attended, but that's about it. Nothing special.

Of omnipotent sincerity,

Alijham

Maybe, I don't know. I continue to do it because, because I.... enjoy it? I like it but it feels like I'm being useless, I'm not making a change in anything except for the piece of wood, there's no thought, no interpretation, but it's... soothing. And I never knew you got kicked out of bards college, only that you were in it. And just so you know, I learned more about you from you telling that story.

Of the most simplistic but true sincerity,
Haj'Nar

Then it's just a hobby. Even if it makes no change, it's good to continue doing that if it's soothing for you. Aye, I did get kicked out because I was a stupid ass. I assume you did learn because I told you something you didn't know before.

You're a noodle.

Alijham

Maybe you are correct, but I've never had a hobby that doesn't have some sort of mental or physical payment in return. And indubitably, I learned because you told me something i knew not of before, but that wasn't that you are a stupid ass, I've known that since I first met you.

I beseech you to tell me why I am a noodle,
Haj'Nar

I think that if there is no kind of mental payment, it's not a hobby. If you don't enjoy it, I mean.

You don't have to tell me I'm a stupid ass, Haj. I already know that.

It goes unsaid that you are a noodle,


Alijham

Maybe I need to redefine my views on what a hobby is, maybe it is a hobby.

I understand very well that you already know you are a stupid ass, many people have shown it to you many a time. But sometimes it is better to be both smart and stupid than just one side, Some of the most wise people are wise because they can see through irrational and rational eyes, see both choices in a full glass rather than only one. You are indeed a stupid ass, but a smart ass too.

I guess I'm a noodle,
Haj'Nar

Maybe you do. I don't know, I guess it's different to everyone.

I know that, too. I can be smart when I want to be. Kind of like how you can be stupid when you want to be, but you're usually not stupid. Best of both worlds?

You are indeed a noodle,
Alijham

Ah, yes, exactly! I'm only stupid when it's the smart thing to do, which isn't often. But unlike you I can't really think irrationally. Stupid coincides with emotions and I don't have many emotions strong enough to sway me from reality or truth. You, however, always a led by both your mind and your heart, which is much different from just being stupid when it's the smart thing to do.

Anywhom, moral of the story is: being stupid isn't a bad thing, and although i knew you were stupid, I learned more about you from the story you told, because the more you learn of someone, the more you know about them.

With noodilistic sincerity,
Haj'Nar
(that was me being smart by being stupid)