Wyndhenir's Scribbles

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AlijhamJul 23, 2015

Jul 23, 2015 at 04:11 PM #1

Papa used to write a lot about his days. He said that it made him feel better, so I'm going to do it too. I'm not upset, though. I think he doesn't write anyone because he's really happy, and he only wrote when he was sad. But I still want to write.

Papa got married last night. I was there with Ylir and Grandpapa, but we didn't stay a long time like Elsy did. Papa took Ylir and I home and talked to us and put us to bed not long into the reception. I felt kind of bad he had to leave his own wedding and he couldn't stay and enjoy himself with Elsy because of us. I told him that, too, but he just smiled and said it was okay. He said the wedding reception wasn't the most important part of the wedding, it was pretty much just for the guests to eat a bunch of food and give gifts.

He stayed with us for a long time. He gave us both a bunch of kisses, and asked us how we felt. I said that I was really happy and Ylir just nodded. Then he said that Elsy loved us very much. I told him that I knew she did, I could tell. I love her very much, too, but I didn't say that to him. I was sleepy and I didn't feel like talking much.

This morning, Grandpapa explained to us that Papa and Elsy will probably be gone for a couple days spending time together. He said that's what people do after weddings. That made Ylir a little sad, because she wanted to see them, but it made me happy because I knew how happy Papa was. Elsy makes him so happy. Sometimes I'll see him stop doing whatever he's doing and just smile, and I know he's thinking about her. That makes me so happy. I got tired of seeing Papa sad, and now he doesn't have to be anymore. And me neither.

Papa said last night that Elsy asked if we'd call her Mama, and he said to do that because it would make her feel good. That will take getting used to, but I want to. I've never had a mama before. Hm.

The passage is written in shockingly neat handwriting. One would think a five-year-old wouldn't be able to read and write so fluently, let alone comprehend more than basic grammar. Wyndhenir is a smart waffle.

ElsyAug 07, 2015

Aug 07, 2015 at 07:28 AM #2

A carefully written letter would arrive for Wyndhenir. The handwriting was deliberate, as though she had been trying to make it legible - something her typical handwriting was not.

Dearest Wyndhenir,

I'm so sorry your Pa and I have not been able to see you and Ylir. I know he's already explained to you the sickness that is happening in Vulkwasten right now, but I wanted to apologize myself. I'd hate to chance you or Ylir getting it, especially with the trouble Ylir has already had with her lungs.

I miss you, and I miss Ylir. Give her a hug for me. I know your Pa is missing you both an awful large amount, too. But of course, when is he not? He loves you both to bits. I do, too.

I hope things are going alright. Your Pa told me about some of the things that had happened with his father. I'm sure it was scary. Please, if you need anything at all, even just someone to talk to, you know your Pa and I will stop whatever it is we're doing to help you, and we'd do the same for Ylir. He and I talked some and thought it may be best to have the two of you stay with my mother until this sickness is well and truly taken care of. I hope that's alright with you two, and I hope you like her. She's a pretty funny lady.

I can't wait for this sickness to be done with. I've been wanting to scoop you and Ylir up and give you both an enormous hug since the wedding. Your Pa and I have some plans to take the two of you out once this is over. Where would you like to go? Maybe another picnic? I think a rematch of that race is in order, since your Pa is so wholly convinced I cheated. Hehe.

Stay safe. And take care of Ylir. Although I'm sure you always do; you're a wonderful big brother. Your Pa and I love you. Tell Ylir we love her too.

With all my heart,
Elsy

AlijhamAug 07, 2015

Aug 07, 2015 at 11:17 PM #3

Elsy,

Thanks for writing to me. I wanted to write to you, but I didn't know who I was supposed to give the letter to to get it to you and Pa. It's okay, I understand a lot of crazy stuff is happening over there. It seems to do that a lot, and I'm happy because it's exciting for Pa. I think he likes it because he knows he can always make it all better.

I miss you too, and I miss Pa, and I will give Ylir a lot of hugs for you. And I love you. So does Ylir.

Everything is okay here, and I like this house in Silvenar. I like Pa's friend watching us, too. His name is Rabjorn and he's a big silly nord. Pa wrote to him asking him to come to Vulkwasten, because they were very good friends and he missed him. He worked with Pa in his alchemy shop sometimes, but he traveled a lot because he really likes to explore. Maybe you can meet him.

What Grandpapa showed me was scary, but he explained to me that I might need to do it if I ever really needed to. And I'm kind of glad that he did, just in case, even though he hurt that girl. She seemed nice, but Grandpapa said that she was going to die anyways because she was terminally ill. He made sure that he found someone that was going to die anyway so he would put her out of her misery instead of her living sad and sick for the rest of her life. So, it wasn't that bad, because I knew she was going to be happy with Hircine. Or wherever she was supposed to go. Grandpapa also explained that not everyone's soul goes to Hircine, and I read some books about gods and afterlives. I love reading about that stuff.

That sounds fun. I want to meet your Ma, Pa told me all about her living in the High Elf place. I forgot what it's called, but I was to see the pink trees and sparkly water. Thanks for offering to talk to me and help me whenever I need, but I'm okay now. So is Ylir, but she cries a lot before bedtime because she said it's hard to go to sleep without Pa singing to her. Sometimes I cry, too, because she cries and I don't like it when Ylir cries. But she is really really little and little babies cry.

I can't wait, either. I want to go somewhere cool with you and Pa. And sometime, I want to go somewhere with just you so we can talk more. Rabjorn says the sick will be done with soon. I hope he's right. I want to give you a really big fat hug and go somewhere with you. I don't know where I'd like to go, though, because there are a lot of places I want to go. And I like picnics. Races are good, too, and I like watching you and Pa laugh and roll around together.

Don't get sick, and be careful in the woods and stuff. That's scary. I'll take care of Ylir for you, and Rabjorn. I know he thinks he's in charge but I actually really am. And I love you.

I think I'm gonna call you Ma now,

Wyndhenir

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ElsyAug 08, 2015

Aug 08, 2015 at 07:42 AM #4

Dearest Wyndhenir,

Thank you for understanding. I do think you're right. It makes your Pa incredibly happy to be able to help people. And he does always make everything better. He's very good at that.

I'll tell your Pa you both miss him, though I'm sure he already knows.

I'm glad things are going well. The little house is cozy, isn't it? It sort of reminds me of my childhood home in a way. The furniture is very similar. Rabjorn sounds simply wonderful. I'll have to meet him sometime. He seems to share the same love of exploration I have. I think you and your Pa have that love of exploration, too.

As for your Grandpapa, I can only hope that you never have to use what he showed you. That girl may have been sick and dying, but it's not fair for other people to determine the fate of another, no matter their condition and what you or someone else may think is best for them. I myself (and on occasion your Pa) do not always agree with what your Grandpapa says and does. He means well, I'm sure, but his decisions are not always ones I would make. You're incredibly smart, Wyndhenir. And you have your Pa's kind heart in you. I know, I've seen it. And I have the utmost confidence that you will do nothing less than create good for this world.

Your Grandpapa was right when he said not all souls go to Hircine. What else have you read on the subject? I, too, find it interesting.

Aye, my Ma lives in the Summerset Isles. I don't know if you've read about them, but she lives in a pretty big city named Alinor. There's lots of pretty things there. She has pink trees in her backyard, and if you ask she'd be more than happy to take you to see the sparkly water, and even swim in it. If there's anything you need at all from her, just ask and she'll do the best she can. She can't walk too well, but she'll make sure you and Ylir are taken care of and have everything you need.

I'm sorry to hear Ylir cries without your Pa singing to you two, and that you cry too. It's ok to cry. Just know your Pa would love nothing more than to sing to you if he weren't stuck here. Maybe I can ask him to sing to you from here. The two of you probably wouldn't hear it, but you might feel it, if that makes sense. Or he and I could climb a tree and sing and shout like loons to try to get you both to hear us even from all the way in Silvenar. I think that would be pretty funny.

That sounds perfect. As soon as this sickness is done, you and I can talk for as long as you'd like about absolutely anything. And I'm taking that want to give me a hug and go somewhere as a promise. I'll be looking forward to it. And I like laughing and rolling around with him. He's so silly, and I love it.

Thank you, sweetheart. I'll try my best. I have no doubt you'll do a good job taking care of everyone. I love you, too.

I would really, really love that, but please don't if it makes you uncomfortable. I understand if it does.

With all my heart,
Elsy

AlijhamAug 08, 2015

Aug 08, 2015 at 04:49 PM #5

Ma,

The house is very cozy, yeah. It's prettier than a lot of the houses I've seen here. The beds are very soft.
I do love to explore, and so does Pa and Rabjorn and you.

I hope I don't have to, either, and I guess you're right. Pa tells me Grandpapa is crazy sometimes. I hope I do a lot of good stuff for the world. Pa says that Grandpapa has done very good things, too, and he used to lead a village kind of like you do. He said that all of his family was there and they all looked up to him.

I read about the Green Pact, and the Ooze. Pa already taught me all about the Nord gods and Imperial gods. I read some about high elf gods, too.

Yeah, I've read about Alinor. It sounds amazing. I really want to meet your Ma now. I'm excited to go swim in the skarkly water, I like swimming.

Pa always tells me it's okay to cry, and not to listen to anyone else when they say it's not. He says it makes you strong to cry because you're strong enough to let out your emotions and not care what anyone else thinks about it. Pa is very smart. I would really like that, if Pa and you sang before bed. I think I would feel it. You and Pa are both very silly, and it makes Ylir and I happy because you are happy.

Pa always says that because he's gone a lot, even if he's not here, that we can always whisper to Hircine and he will hear us. He also says that a lot of people don't like Hircine, even know he's a pretty good god and he has good principals. He says that all gods have bad parts to them, so Hircine having bad parts shouldn't be that big of a deal to other people. I've read all about Hircine and I like him.

Calling you Ma doesn't make me uncomfortable at all. I never called my blood-ma Ma because she's not my ma. She's just some crazy lady that happened to birth me. At least, that's what Pa tells me. He says that he doesn't matter if you are blood or not, if you feel someone isn't truly your family, they are. Like Ylir. Pa rescued her, and now she is my sister. You have been a Ma to me so you are my Ma. Ylir has never had a Ma, though, she never even saw her Ma. So I think she thinks of you as a Ma a whole lot. She loves you so much, and so do I.

I can't wait to hug you and go somewhere with you, and to meet your Ma.

I finally figured out how to send letters to a bunch of people,

Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 08, 2015

Aug 08, 2015 at 09:20 PM #6

Sweetheart,

Your Pa is right. Your Grandpapa does do good things, and he'll do some not-so-good things. Just like sometimes I do some not-so-good things. No one ever means to do that, they're just trying to do what they think is good. Sometimes they make mistakes though. I know I've made plenty. But we try to follow the good things others do, and learn from the mistakes they make. Myself included. I think what happened with the girl was a not-so-good thing, and can be something we learn from, instead of follow. Does that make sense? Sorry, that was sort of confusing.

I should talk to your Pa more about Nord and Imperial gods. I don't know them so well. Or maybe when you and I see each other again you can teach me about them yourself. I know a lot about the Green Pact and the Ooze, and after living with Altmer for so long, I'm pretty familiar with their gods, too.

I'll be sure to ask my Ma to take you two swimming.

It does make you strong to cry. Sometimes crying can make you feel worlds better. It's something that is hard for me to do, though. And that's when I go talk to your Pa, because he is very smart and he's good at being strong, and he helps me like he helps you two. But I'll ask him if he'll sing to you two before bed every night we're not together, that way you can feel it. Then I'll climb a tree and shout just for good measure. I'm glad our silliness can make you and Ylir happy. I love it when you're both smiling.

He's right. I don't much whisper to Hircine myself. I believe in different things. But if you do feel alone or lost, sometimes it helps to whisper to Hircine or whoever is watching over us. I like to think they help us, even if it's in a small way. Sometimes I do that, and sometimes I think maybe my Pa's spirit listens and helps me, or takes my message to Y'ffre when I truly need the help.

I'm really glad you and Ylir think that. I want to be your Ma, and I'll try very hard to be the Ma you two deserve. I've never been a Ma before, though. I'm sorry if I make mistakes. I love you both so much. Is there anything you'd like me to call you, or is Wyndhenir alright?

You'll do that all very soon, love. I promise.

Letters are fun, aren't they? They're like little presents.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 08, 2015

Aug 08, 2015 at 11:47 PM #7

Ma,

No, the things he does aren't good sometimes, and everyone else. I understand what you mean and I agree.

I think you should, too. Pa likes to talk about the gods he knows and he knows more about them than I do. He really likes philosophy.

Pa always knows how to make everyone feel better. I don't know how, but it doesn't matter how. Because it works. Thanks for singing and screaming from trees, maybe Ylir and I will listen and hear you. I love it when you and Pa and smiling, and that makes me smile, too.

It makes me feel a little better when I pray and stuff. I have an amulet of Hircine I always wear.

I know that you won't make any mistakes. And if you do, that's okay. Everybody makes mistakes. I love you, too, and so does Ylir.

I don't know what else you could call us. Pa calls me Wynd and Wyndy and he calls Ylir Lir.

I'm exited to see you and your Ma,

Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 09, 2015

Aug 09, 2015 at 01:43 AM #8

Sweetheart,

I'll talk to your Pa about it some. Then maybe you and I could talk when we spend some time together. It's very interesting. Mostly because no one ever has all of the answers to the questions it involves.

Aye, your Pa is so incredible. I don't know how he does it either. Your Pa and I will always sing and shout for you. I'll do mostly shouting though. I don't think you'd like to hear my singing much, it mostly sounds like shouting anyhow, heh. You're so sweet.

Prayer is calming. I didn't know you had an amulet. I don't really have anything like that. My Pa had a lot of those types of things, and I'm always afraid I'll lose them if I carry them around.

Thank you, love. You and Ylir are so very sweet.

I like Wyndy and Lir. Is it aright if I call you two that?

I'm excited, too.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 11, 2015

Aug 11, 2015 at 03:31 AM #9

Ma,

That sounds perfect. There's always more to read about religion and to think about, because nobody really knows for sure.

That's how I know that you are so wonderful, because Pa thinks you are so wonderful. And he is always right. I can't wait to hear your shouting.

It's really calming. Grandpapa made the amulet for me when I was a baby, and I always wear it. I can't lose it because I don't take it off.

I try, I guess. Ylir is sweeter than me because I'm just honest.

Yes, you can call me whenever you like.

Love,

Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 11, 2015

Aug 11, 2015 at 03:39 AM #10

Sweetheart,

Aye, and that's the fun of it. No one knows. There is no right and no wrong.

Hehe, don't tell him I said so, but you're right. Your Pa is always right. He's too smart and sweet not to be. But thank you, I really hope to be wonderful. As wonderful as you are.

I didn't know that. That's very sweet. I suppose you're right. I'm always too afraid, I think, because it's sort of all I have left of my Pa and I really don't want anything happening to those sorts of things.

Honesty is sweet. Honesty and sweetness go hand-in-hand. There is no point of being sweet if you are not also being honest about it, no?

Perfect. Wyndy it is.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 11, 2015

Aug 11, 2015 at 08:39 PM #11

Ma,

I think so, too, but sometimes people argue about it. I don't see the use, we can just believe what we want and be okay with what everyone else believes, too.

Maybe I'll tell him, because he really likes to hear that he's right. He works really hard to be, I think. You're already wonderful.

I understand what you mean. I get scared I'll lose it or break it sometimes, too.

You're right. You can be mean and honest, though, so Pa tells me to be careful. He says that he is honest and accidentally mean sometimes.

And you will be Ma!

Love,

Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 12, 2015

Aug 12, 2015 at 03:25 AM #12

Sweetheart,

I don't either. I think you're entirely right. There's no use in arguing over anything that no one has all of the answers to. So long as no one is hurting anyone else, they are entitled to their own opinions and beliefs.

You can tell him. He'll give me a little grief because I like to joke and pretend I'm always right, and not him, but I think it would be good for him to hear. I'll tell him too. And you're wonderful.

Aye. Maybe I can show you them sometime. We'd have to visit my Ma in Alinor though, since she keeps them all. Or perhaps when you're there you could as her to see them. She'll tell you some funny stories about him too. He liked to pull pranks on her.

That's true. I try not to say things that are honest and mean, but it can be hard. Your Pa is so very smart.

I love you so much.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 16, 2015

Aug 16, 2015 at 02:44 PM #13

Ma,

I think it's dumb sometimes because it makes people fight. Pa says religion is just a thing to make people feel better when in need, like with prayer and stuff, and feel like they have a purpose. And he says some people take that too far and too seriously.

Okay, I will, too. I think he'd like that, but he wouldn't say it out loud. Thanks.

That would be fun, I think.

Pa also says that a lot of people think hes mean or are mean to him because he's honest a lot. He says that his ma always told him he had an undertoned attitude he needed to fix, and he says he still is working on that. He's just sassy at heart, I guess.

I love you so much,

Wyndy

ElsyAug 17, 2015

Aug 17, 2015 at 03:59 AM #14

Sweetheart,

I think so, too. Your Pa is right. But of course, no matter the topic, be it religion, war, love, or even something as simple as favorite foods, there are always going to be people who take things far too seriously.

Perfect.

I think you're right. He doesn't ever mean to say rude things, but sometimes he phrases his ideas in ways that make them sound mean. And sometimes that makes people upset. I want to help him with that. I don't like it when people are mad at him, especially when I know how sweet he is, and how much he doesn't mean to be rude.

But then again, I don't like it when people are mad in general, especially when it's at myself or people I love. And I don't like it when others fight. It makes my belly feel sick.

I want to group hug you, and Ylir, and your Pa. I love it when we're all together. It makes me so happy.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 17, 2015

Aug 17, 2015 at 04:36 PM #15

Ma,

That's totally true. Pa says that irritates him when people take things too seriously.

Yes, he's never done it to me or Ylir, but Grandpapa talks about how he does it sometimes. It makes my belly sick, too, when people fight. I get really sad when people are mad.

We should do that. I love it when we're all together, too. I hope the town stays calm for a little longer this time so we can spend more time together.

Love,

Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 19, 2015

Aug 19, 2015 at 10:41 PM #16

Sweetheart,

Aye, it irritates me too, but sometimes I just smile and nod because some are so set in their ways, it's not worth trying to talk sense into them.

I've seen him do it a few times, and he always feels bad when he realizes he has, because your Pa doesn't ever want to hurt anyone. I get sad, too. I think you'd be very good at helping people not be mad.

I hope so too. Have you any place you'd like to go or anything in particular you'd like to do? I think we will be having a festival in Vulkwasten soon. Harvest's End is only a few weeks away, anyhow. I think a festival is in order.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamAug 30, 2015

Aug 30, 2015 at 08:57 PM #17

Ma,

That's true. I don't like that it is, though.

Thanks. I like to think so, and Pa says I am.

I don't know, I've always wanted to go camping. I'm sorry I took so long to write back to you. During the festival, Pa had me stay in the clinic with Afer's kids and Lu's kids and Bhi's kids. We all played up there. Pa said he didn't want me to get lost with all the people, or to get scared by some drunks and adult talk.

Love,
Wyndhenir

ElsyAug 30, 2015

Aug 30, 2015 at 10:15 PM #18

Sweetheart,

That's alright. I'm glad he did, there were so many people I almost got lost myself. I hope you had lots of fun. I'm sorry it was a little too much outside for all of you. I would have loved to have you and your sister both around for the games. What have you and Ylir been up to, love?

I'm sorry I've been so busy the last week. I'll be around more now that the festival is done with. Maybe you and I can take a special trip somewhere and talk like we'd talked about earlier.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamSep 01, 2015

Sep 01, 2015 at 12:21 AM #19

Ma,

I am, too. I had a lot of fun. It's okay, I wouldn't want to be out there with all those people anyways. Ylir and I have been doing a lot of reading together, and I've been helping her sew. I'm getting better with my alchemy, too.

It's okay, I've been pretty busy, too. Trying to focus on learning stuff. I can't wait to spend more time with you, though, and I want to go somewhere and talk.

Love,
Wyndhenir

ElsySep 01, 2015

Sep 01, 2015 at 06:01 PM #20

Sweetheart,

That's lovely! What sorts of things have you been reading? How is Ylir doing with the sewing? You're very sweet for helping her. And you'll have to tell me about your alchemy. I'm really terrible with it, I'm sure you're already words better than I.

We can go whenever you'd like. I shouldn't have much to do in the coming days.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamSep 03, 2015

Sep 03, 2015 at 08:33 PM #21

Ma,

I've been reading history stuff that Pa keeps on his shelves. I really like it, it's interesting. Ylir is doing very good with her sewing, she's made a couple pieces of clothes. She works on it almost all the time, and I like helping her. Sewing is interesting. I can teach you some things probably next time you're up in the clinic. Maybe, I don't know. I've been learning it for a long time.

Perfect! I don't know where, though. Maybe to somewhere sandy.

Love,
Wyndhenir

ElsySep 08, 2015

Sep 08, 2015 at 08:16 PM #22

Sweetheart,

History is very interesting! I'm glad she's doing so well. I'm so impressed with the dress her and your Pa made me. And it's very sweet of you to help her. You're such a good big brother. I think that would be lovely. I've learned quite a few things from my Ma. As I'm sure you saw when you visited her, she's had quite a lot of practice with sewing.

That sounds perfect.

With all my heart,
Ma

AlijhamSep 08, 2015

Sep 08, 2015 at 09:21 PM #23

Ma,

Yeah, I really love it. I was pretty impressed, too, she did a good job even without me. Maybe she'll be a clothier when she grows up. I remember seeing all the sewing stuff when I went to see your Ma. I think it's cool, but I'm not all that interesting in sewing myself.

Love,
Wyndhenir