KisvenFeb 19, 2016Feb 19, 2016 at 06:32 AM
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In an attempt to try and be a little less... Robotic? I am redoing this thing.
First, tell us your name and age.
Tim, 25.
Is there something you'd like to tell whoever might be reading this?
I come not for your lives, nor your ideals. I come for the progenitor of all things, conflict.
Where are you from and where do you live?
I am from San Diego, I live in a frozen shit hole in colorado now.
What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?
Tim, Timmy, God. Mourningstar (yes like Lucifer but spelt wrong. I got the name while in vegas). Kisven.
Kisven is prefered here at least.
What books on your shelf are begging to be read?
Currently the Last question by Issac Asimov.
How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like?
I doodle rarely now. When I did they were mostly geometric shapes. I lack a visual imagination.
What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive?
I can never sleep. So I drink Vodka to take the edge down. Sometimes I end up staying awake for days just writing or trying to improve my self.
How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it?
I live alone so, aside from the computer being missing I bet for at least a few months. I would sing, and dance, and excercise.
Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away?
No I've lost sentimental things too many times before, I just toss them now.
When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost?
If I was a little drunk when I arrived I usually enter big and loud. But if I'm sober, I avoid the party all together.
What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be?
My sense of hearing or smell are strongest. I'd give up taste.
How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?
Often, I am convinced that inspite of my poor dental health I am easily one of the most attractive people I know.
What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?
That the vet had killed my dog on purpose. I couldn't understand why medicine had failed to help my dog and it drove me to hate the vets to the point of swearing to kill them in revenge. I don't hold that anymore, but I still fail to see why death is still a thing.
What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up?
Nicotine. I am an addict through and through.
Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know?
My mother, she understands what it is to be homeless. She understands that with further automation of industries that humans will eventually become unemployable and as such the stigma attached to the homeless is inherently false.
How often do you read the newspaper? Which paper? Which sections?
No.
Which animals scare you most? Why?
Humans. Because the capacity to destroy our selves is insane. Awareness might always lead to self destruction.
Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on?
Depends. I'll descalate where I can. And try to predict where I cannot win. Often I dont get the thought that I would lose.
What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savored?
My training manager at my new workplace told me that he sees I can be a great leader. I don't get compliments often. So it definitly made me feel better.
What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will?
Depression from the awareness of my own mortality. It keeps me from being happy.
Are you a creature of habit? Explain.
Yes? No? I'm not sure, I feel like I adapt fairly quickly. One habit that is continuous is needing a smoke after being stressed out.
Are you high maintenance? Explain.
I am in that I only drink expensive liqour. Cheap booze clothes and colonge bother me. Otherwise I'm easy going.
When was the last time you really pushed yourself to your physical limits?
Months ago, when I last had my Gym membership.
Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why?
Both, I keep people who are usefull at the moment around for that moment. My close friends however I know them well enough to see their potential.
Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others?
Build my own empire through the potential of others.
What’s a strange thing that happens to you but you have never (or rarely) shared with anyone?
I used to have asthma as a child. And I used to take steroids for it.
What do you think about more than anything else?
Dying, why we have to die. Whats the point of existance if it just ends?
What’s something that amazes you?
That we live in a false meritocracy. People get ahead more often by playing the sycophant than by being truely superior in their work.
Do you prefer that people shoot straight with you or temper their words? Why?
Shoot straight. I hate sycophants.
Where’s your favorite place to take an out-of-town guest
I don't have guests.
What’s one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself? Why?
Cook. I hate eating, I hate the need to eat. I eat because its required to survive. And I never have time to cook a damn thing.
Do you have a catchphrase?
Fuck me running sideways on a tuesday.
How and where do you prefer to study?
I study in the method of not doing anything. Sleep listening I call it.
What position do you sleep in?
Side, with one arm under the pillow gripping my pistol.
What’s your all-time favorite town or city? Why?
I love pheonix arizona. It never gets cold.
What are the top three qualities that draw you to someone new?
Power, physical appearance, Intellect.
How has your birth order/characteristics of siblings affected you?
My younger brother was essentially raised by me. Eldest of two. My parents were drug addled idiots for the longest time. I was very autonomus as a child so I eventually gave up trying to have my parents do things for me. That lead to me raising my Brother. Now I am tired, very very tired from just being alive. But I love being alive and aware more than I am tired.
If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be?
Mortality.
If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?
Prometheus.
Do you believe ignorance is bliss? Why or why not?
Yes, the simple fact of awareness and intellect keeps me from finding much joy, or being able to just vent. I alway end up putting emotions in a box after explaining them and its never really resolved. I can't see someone who really isnt aware of their mortality being unhappy with just being alive.
What do you consider unforgivable?
Dying, or slowing my progress for my own good or otherwise. Getting in the way of my ambition.
Have you forgiven yourself for past personal failures? Why or why not?
No. I never forgive, so I'll never forget.
How difficult is it for you to forgive someone who refuses to apologize?
If they are just acting out of a lack of emotional control its not very difficult. However, a person who is willingfully stupid is unforgivable for anything they do thats counterproductive.
Do you hold any convictions that you would be willing to die for?
This question bothers me. Why be willing to die for something when being willing to live for it is so much harder to do?
To what extent do you trust people? Explain.
I don't. Not unless they have proven to be consistent and actually do the things they say when they say them.
In what area of your life are you immature?
I dance in public. I'm scared to sing infront of people. I think that being afraid of public speaking for me at least is immature. Something I should get rid of honestly, how can I command an empire if I shake when I speak to them?
How difficult is it for you to be honest, even when your words may be hurtful or unpopular?
It's not. Unless Its going to cost me my job because I go from 0-100 in no time flat.
When did you immediately click with someone you just met? Why? What was the long term result? Conversely, are you close with anyone now that you really disliked at first?
My best friends and I have all tried to kill one another in the first day we met. The second day we got along famously.
My ex, she brought something protective out of me when we first met. Like I was guarding a small but valuable treasure. We split up because she had said that living forever was not something anyone should pursue.
When do you find yourself singing?
All the freakin time, when I think noone is looking at least. or when it embarasses someone Im hanging out with.
First, tell us your name and age.
Tim, 25.
Is there something you'd like to tell whoever might be reading this?
I come not for your lives, nor your ideals. I come for the progenitor of all things, conflict.
Where are you from and where do you live?
I am from San Diego, I live in a frozen shit hole in colorado now.
What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?
Tim, Timmy, God. Mourningstar (yes like Lucifer but spelt wrong. I got the name while in vegas). Kisven.
Kisven is prefered here at least.
What books on your shelf are begging to be read?
Currently the Last question by Issac Asimov.
How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like?
I doodle rarely now. When I did they were mostly geometric shapes. I lack a visual imagination.
What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive?
I can never sleep. So I drink Vodka to take the edge down. Sometimes I end up staying awake for days just writing or trying to improve my self.
How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it?
I live alone so, aside from the computer being missing I bet for at least a few months. I would sing, and dance, and excercise.
Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away?
No I've lost sentimental things too many times before, I just toss them now.
When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost?
If I was a little drunk when I arrived I usually enter big and loud. But if I'm sober, I avoid the party all together.
What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be?
My sense of hearing or smell are strongest. I'd give up taste.
How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?
Often, I am convinced that inspite of my poor dental health I am easily one of the most attractive people I know.
What is the strangest thing you believed as a child?
That the vet had killed my dog on purpose. I couldn't understand why medicine had failed to help my dog and it drove me to hate the vets to the point of swearing to kill them in revenge. I don't hold that anymore, but I still fail to see why death is still a thing.
What is one guilty pleasure you enjoy too much to give up?
Nicotine. I am an addict through and through.
Who performs the most random acts of kindness out of everyone you know?
My mother, she understands what it is to be homeless. She understands that with further automation of industries that humans will eventually become unemployable and as such the stigma attached to the homeless is inherently false.
How often do you read the newspaper? Which paper? Which sections?
No.
Which animals scare you most? Why?
Humans. Because the capacity to destroy our selves is insane. Awareness might always lead to self destruction.
Are you more likely to avoid conflict or engage it head-on?
Depends. I'll descalate where I can. And try to predict where I cannot win. Often I dont get the thought that I would lose.
What was the most recent compliment you’ve received and savored?
My training manager at my new workplace told me that he sees I can be a great leader. I don't get compliments often. So it definitly made me feel better.
What is something about yourself that you hope will change, but probably never will?
Depression from the awareness of my own mortality. It keeps me from being happy.
Are you a creature of habit? Explain.
Yes? No? I'm not sure, I feel like I adapt fairly quickly. One habit that is continuous is needing a smoke after being stressed out.
Are you high maintenance? Explain.
I am in that I only drink expensive liqour. Cheap booze clothes and colonge bother me. Otherwise I'm easy going.
When was the last time you really pushed yourself to your physical limits?
Months ago, when I last had my Gym membership.
Do you have a whole lot of acquaintances or just a few very close friends? Why?
Both, I keep people who are usefull at the moment around for that moment. My close friends however I know them well enough to see their potential.
Are you more inclined to “build your own empire” or unleash the potential of others?
Build my own empire through the potential of others.
What’s a strange thing that happens to you but you have never (or rarely) shared with anyone?
I used to have asthma as a child. And I used to take steroids for it.
What do you think about more than anything else?
Dying, why we have to die. Whats the point of existance if it just ends?
What’s something that amazes you?
That we live in a false meritocracy. People get ahead more often by playing the sycophant than by being truely superior in their work.
Do you prefer that people shoot straight with you or temper their words? Why?
Shoot straight. I hate sycophants.
Where’s your favorite place to take an out-of-town guest
I don't have guests.
What’s one thing you’d rather pay someone to do than do yourself? Why?
Cook. I hate eating, I hate the need to eat. I eat because its required to survive. And I never have time to cook a damn thing.
Do you have a catchphrase?
Fuck me running sideways on a tuesday.
How and where do you prefer to study?
I study in the method of not doing anything. Sleep listening I call it.
What position do you sleep in?
Side, with one arm under the pillow gripping my pistol.
What’s your all-time favorite town or city? Why?
I love pheonix arizona. It never gets cold.
What are the top three qualities that draw you to someone new?
Power, physical appearance, Intellect.
How has your birth order/characteristics of siblings affected you?
My younger brother was essentially raised by me. Eldest of two. My parents were drug addled idiots for the longest time. I was very autonomus as a child so I eventually gave up trying to have my parents do things for me. That lead to me raising my Brother. Now I am tired, very very tired from just being alive. But I love being alive and aware more than I am tired.
If you could eliminate one weakness or limitation in your life, what would it be?
Mortality.
If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?
Prometheus.
Do you believe ignorance is bliss? Why or why not?
Yes, the simple fact of awareness and intellect keeps me from finding much joy, or being able to just vent. I alway end up putting emotions in a box after explaining them and its never really resolved. I can't see someone who really isnt aware of their mortality being unhappy with just being alive.
What do you consider unforgivable?
Dying, or slowing my progress for my own good or otherwise. Getting in the way of my ambition.
Have you forgiven yourself for past personal failures? Why or why not?
No. I never forgive, so I'll never forget.
How difficult is it for you to forgive someone who refuses to apologize?
If they are just acting out of a lack of emotional control its not very difficult. However, a person who is willingfully stupid is unforgivable for anything they do thats counterproductive.
Do you hold any convictions that you would be willing to die for?
This question bothers me. Why be willing to die for something when being willing to live for it is so much harder to do?
To what extent do you trust people? Explain.
I don't. Not unless they have proven to be consistent and actually do the things they say when they say them.
In what area of your life are you immature?
I dance in public. I'm scared to sing infront of people. I think that being afraid of public speaking for me at least is immature. Something I should get rid of honestly, how can I command an empire if I shake when I speak to them?
How difficult is it for you to be honest, even when your words may be hurtful or unpopular?
It's not. Unless Its going to cost me my job because I go from 0-100 in no time flat.
When did you immediately click with someone you just met? Why? What was the long term result? Conversely, are you close with anyone now that you really disliked at first?
My best friends and I have all tried to kill one another in the first day we met. The second day we got along famously.
My ex, she brought something protective out of me when we first met. Like I was guarding a small but valuable treasure. We split up because she had said that living forever was not something anyone should pursue.
When do you find yourself singing?
All the freakin time, when I think noone is looking at least. or when it embarasses someone Im hanging out with.
Edited Jan 05, 2017 at 09:34 AM by 0