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Drunken Lullabies - Nine-Live's Journal

25 posts · started by Ganja on May 08, 2017 · 3750 views · in Active Journals & Diaries
DreamsMay 08, 2017
May 08, 2017 at 10:13 AM #1
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The beaten, black and white journal can be found in his pack. Easily gotten if one is willing to knick it off of his belongings. Not too difficult, if one has the patience. With him loving the drink, he tends to pass out after he's had enough. It just takes the patience to wait for him to sleep. Or if one is brave, it could be knicked off of him while he's distracted. This is the journal of Nine-Lives.. A rather happy go lucky fellow..

The entries are scattered, and some may not even make sense. The ink used is a simple black ink. But the ink is also badly smeared, faded and some even very difficult to read due to many different factors. Be it water damage, spilled drinks, spilled blotches of ink... The book has definitely not been treated very well.

The journal is faded in places, broken in others. The spine of the book looks as if someone tore at it and possibly beat the book within an inch of it's book life. Pages are loose, some are even falling out. Some pages are clearly added in with nothing to actually anchor them in the book, aside from closing it and binding the book shut. The corners are well beaten, worn and even chunks of black cover from the edges are gone. Leaving a pinkish-red fabric/paper exposed. The book is also badly stained.. Even the pages are in this stained condition.. Most of it is water damage. But, there is also clearly alcohol stains on the pages and even the cover as well. The book is bound shut with a faded red, frayed ribbon.

Be warned, dear reader. You open this book and read it's contents at your own risk. He knows the order of the loose pages. If they're taken out of order, he'll know.

Edited May 08, 2017 at 05:55 PM by 0

DreamsMay 08, 2017
May 08, 2017 at 10:48 AM #2
[ Most of the early entries are badly water logged. Some almost impossible to read. Others are smeared and smudged badly. Either from his large hands getting in the way, or accidentally setting something on them. Or his fur brushing over the ink and leaving long streaks and then speckles where he came to rest his hands.. And the inked fur leaving it's mark.

Some of the entries date back to childhood. But with the condition of the book, as said, things could easily be missing. There could even be large gaps of things missing. And lets not forget the added loose pages.. Just kind of stuck throughout the book.

The writing is difficult to read. Even going further in, it don't get any better. His writing is like that of a child trying to write. It's sloppy. It should be warned, that it may be difficult to understand what he's trying to convey. This stems from the fact that he can't read that well and spelling is just not his strong point. But he does try. There's also food stains on the pages, aside from the book being stained with water and later in the entries, alcohol.

The book itself reeks of a mixture... Water, booze, an odd yet faint sweet odor, and a faint trace of mildew from not letting the book dry properly during his travels. This book also does not only hold writings.. But also old leaves.. Pressed into his book, to the point they have adhered themselves to the pages that they were left to dry on. The purpose of these leaves is never talked about. But they are still there. These are leaves he found on the ground in his travels. Usually, they're oddly shaped leaves.. Ones that are just unique, and that he took a liking to. ]

Edited May 08, 2017 at 11:44 AM by 0

DreamsMay 08, 2017
May 08, 2017 at 11:52 AM #3
2nd of Frost Fall - [ There is streaks of ink all over the page. Some very faded, others almost gone from water damage. The streaks are from accidentally inking his fur and moving his arm on the page. This entry is from when he was around maybe.. eight years old. Some words are missing in his writings, likely forgotten or written so quickly that he forgot to put them in, or that he didn't know to put them in.]

Pappa and Momma got me a bok today.. They say I shold write. It'll help me learn beter.. Feels weid writin in this..

There is talk of leavin Black Marsh. Don't want to. Momma says it's for best. Pappa say same. Don't want to go. This is home. They wanna to go to a big place with lots of Noords. Eastmark..

[ There's something scribbled out. Where he started to mention the swamp as being where he thinks he belongs. ]

The other kids make fun.. It is true. But how do I say bye to my freinds.. Pappa says he doin it for me. Says I'll make new freinds. He took me to where we leave from somday.. The boats rocked and tipped.. crasheded on the waters.. Watching made my tummy feel ick...

We went home afteer. They r paking, but say it will be awile. Pappa says I'm spec...[scratched out] un...[scratched out, replaced with lettering that is clearly not his.. just a single word, that is not his writing. This single word is neatly written in Jel.] special. They think it will help if we go there.. Eastmark.. that things be beter. No more picking from others.

Kids here have started calling me Fats-Nin-Life-Eater.. Not fair. Not nioce. But I can preted it's OK.



[ The next several entries are badly water logged. There's almost no way to read them. There are some words that easily stand out, but the rest of the scribbles for the entries are almost gone. There is one however that stands out a few years later, making him ten, maybe eleven at the oldest. ]

Edited May 08, 2017 at 12:03 PM by 0

DreamsMay 08, 2017
May 08, 2017 at 12:22 PM #4
5th of Sun's Hi-t - [ Words are seriously screwed up here. A lot of the page wrinkled and warped with water damage. But still readable. ]

I boarded the ship with my parets. I don't like it.. I want off. I was put under deck, my Momma gave me a buket. Told me I'd be alrite and that she'd be topside with Pappa if I neded her. I'm skared.. I don't want to be down here. I feel the rocking more down here than up there..

I miss my alit. Pappa says it's a wild animol, and I have to leeve it beehind.. But it's my freind. I took a bunch of leeves off the tree before leeving. Pappa says the tree is only found in Black Marsh. I took the leeves to always rememmber.

The voice in my head is strong today. It was laufing.. It said the rocking would be fun... It lyd! [This part is in Jel, sloppy and clearly his writing.] Up.. down.. Up.. down.. Make it stop..

Pappa says this will be the first and last time we'll ever board it. I hope he's rite. I don't want to go on here ever again.

[ The rest of the entry is unreadable. Faded away, and the page is torn in places. There's also several pages missing after this. ]

Edited May 08, 2017 at 12:23 PM by 0

DreamsMay 09, 2017
May 09, 2017 at 12:54 PM #5
20th of Sun's Hi-t...??? maybe??

Orfanage... This is where famileeless kids go.. Don't rememmber what hapened.. Know my name.. Nine-Lives.. and other name too.. Was there awile. Nord peeple took me in tho, in Eastmark. They r.. odd.. I like them.

Gave me my own room. Wesh I culd rememmber... What's missing in my mind... Sumthing.. They warship a daaadra, but it's a cecret. Theese pages only no.

[ Many times over, he's attempted to spell out this daedra's name.. But unable to do it, he has just called him "Uncle". ]

Uncle is odder than new famlee. But.. I like him. Only herd stories aboot him. Momma...is she Momma? .... She say that I willl see him sumday. Seeing Uncle wuld be fun.

[ There's a stain from food after that, obscuring the remainder of the entry. Whatever he dropped on this page, has caused the next page to stick to it, rip and keep a remainder of the torn bit of paper. ]

Edited May 09, 2017 at 01:03 PM by 0

DreamsMay 09, 2017
May 09, 2017 at 01:05 PM #6
[ There's a ton of pages missing. Most of them seeming to be either torn out or accidentally removed. There's fragments of entries, but nothing solid to really read from. There are also crudely drawn faces, of which are supposed to be the daedra that his new family worships. However, it likely is hard to connect the face to that daedra, as it is poorly drawn.

There is one entry for around when he is fifteen, describing his first taste of alcohol. The entry is worn, and the lettering is difficult to read, but it describes how he had the first taste, and then couldn't get enough. Of which, the adoptive family allowed him to have as much as he wanted, even encouraging him to drink with them.

Even as the years pass in this journal, his spelling does not improve. If anything, it seems to just remain the same as it was when he was a boy.

The next entries that are actually able to be read, take place around the time that he is in his late teen years. About seventeen years old.. ]
DreamsMay 09, 2017
May 09, 2017 at 01:32 PM #7
1st of Sun's Dust

Thair is talk of war... Seen sholdiers toady. This.. is seriuos.. I am not Nord.. They warry that my fur will be trooble. Momma say that if war comes, she will send me 'way. Pappa has agreed. Where though?

There is sumthing going on.. I want to get clothser. But... unable to. Seen a cranky looking alf in the taveyrn. He was dark skined and taler, with pink eyes. I ofered some mead, he hit mug out of my hand. 'stupid cat' is what he said.. rood.

Told Momma about the alf. Was sent to my room.. Told to stey. She wanted to talk to Pappa. It's boaring in here...

Windoo is open.. It's snowing. I like watching the snow. Found leeves in my journal earlier.. I don't remember why thair in thair.. Pretty tho..

[ Random doodles dot the bottom of the page... Mostly, they just look like very poorly done squiggles and scribbles.. One looks vaguely like a cat. All these little scribbles done out of boredom.

The next page, half of it is gone. Torn off. But there is half an entry.. Or maybe it's just part of the opening to it.. ]


3rd Sun's Dust

Wonder why this month is called that... Is the sun dusty? Do it need a made?

Loods of talk about war.. Pappa is uneasy. Seen him pasing the kitchen.. I slippeded out toady. Met a argonin girl. I like her. She's pretty.. I'll ruein her name if I try to write it.. But it's a pretty one.. fitz her.

We went to a ally togeter. She gave me a bottle of liquid.. Told me to drink. Said it was good. Thought it was new mead.. So drank it. Oh.. the colors... Happy place found! I like it.. noo no no no... I love it...

Thught she was my age. Think she's older. Like her anyway. Hair is fethers. Purkle and long.

I want to no her...

[ It is here that the page is torn off. There is hints of fire damage done to the edges. And water stains where he tried to put the fire out, having knocked over a candle while writing. The next several pages after that are scorched and unreadable. ]

Edited May 09, 2017 at 01:37 PM by 0

DreamsMay 10, 2017
May 10, 2017 at 01:39 PM #8
[With the missing pages, the next entry is penned for when he's twenty, done shortly after his birthday. His writings are a little better, but the spelling still isn't that good. ]

17th of Frostfall - [ There's claw marks on the top of the page, having fought with the book's ribbon that holds the book closed. ]

Book didn't want to open.. Will have to get nother way to hold it shut. Was sent away toady. Momma and Pappa think it's in my best intes... -scribbled out- ... intrest to go to Domino lands. Safe with other cats, they said. I will miss the falling snow. And the sound it makes when it hitz the groond, after falling off the roof. Pappa says where I am going, is warm.

I skerd a woman toady before boording the ship.. I was hearing it again... That voice telling me to do things.. This time, it said run nakkid.. So I did. The cold air felt good, but that woman screemed. Guess not all injoy the cold like we do. I'll never ever ever ever get tired of it. But I will miss it.

The rocking sucks.. Hate it.. Up.. down.. up.. down.. side..side.. ugh... Miss solid groond. I'll sleepe now. Sleep off feeling so sick..


19th of Frostfall

Still far away... Sick... so sick.. Stupid rocking... Will have to kiss the groond and hug trees when off this. Cabin boy gave me a odd smelling powder, said it'd ease the sickness.. It did not. Body did not like it.

[ There's more, but it's faded and unreadable. Most of it badly smeared as well. ]

Edited May 10, 2017 at 01:41 PM by 0

DreamsMay 10, 2017
May 10, 2017 at 02:08 PM #9
[ There's dozens of entries after this.. Detailing adventures, in his own odd way, through out Dominion territory. There's mention of aquiring a lion mount at some point. More water logged papers jut out from the book in various places. Some pages are able to be read, others look as though they were submerged in water and left for days before being pulled back out.

There's an mention of meeting a khajiit by the name of Dahjhan, and befriending him. Somewhere near Dune. Mention of traveling with him and the man's wife for a small time. Though mention of the wife also disliking him.. or thinking Kasinae possibly disliked him. There's also dozens of pressed leaves between the water logged pages. And mention of splitting off from them for a time.

There's also mention of meeting a female khajiit named Jigglethis, while in Khenarthi's Roost. While waiting for the next ship to come, there is mention of getting close to her.. Coming to view her at first, as a possible love interest. However ti does not last this way, and eventually is mentioned that he views her as a sister. There's mention of another boat ride, and his missing of both Dahjhan and missing Jigglethis.

There's some mention of wandering about Auridon, and even mention of living in the Outlaw Refuge. And talk of reconnecting with Dahjhan. And taking a dare that eventually lead to him landing in Velyn Harbor, in Malabal Tor. Where he's been since...

The most readable entries pick back up at the age of twenty eight.. These entries are also where the book really begins to reek of alcohol. ]

Edited May 10, 2017 at 03:01 PM by 0

DreamsMay 10, 2017
May 10, 2017 at 03:16 PM #10
4th of Sun's Dawn

Been here wile. I like it.. Mostly.. Miss the snow though. But it's safe here, rite? No letters come any more.. Dahjhan must be busy. Peeple call me crazy.. they haven't met my friend.. Sailed here.. dare.. he dared me.. A bag of sweetrools if.. I could get something from the capteen on the ship. I remember nothing, until waking up on that ship.. Sick... He's probably laughing. Dicck...

Tho.. It's nice here. Peeple are strange.. but I can cope.

Foond place in the forest, away from everyone. I can pray to Uncle while there. He understands me.. I know it. I preyed there toady actually.. He still hasn't appeared.. But.. I just no it will happen sumday. I want to believe..

Returtened to the town, and found peeple hiring.. A pretty khajiit lady.. and a small alf lady. Joined up with them.. Magpies.. Khajiit lady walked away.. Was told to sober up.. I remmeber that.. Not easy... It makes the whispering be quiet.. But will try.
DreamsMay 16, 2017
May 16, 2017 at 11:53 PM #14
16th of Second Seed

I tried to find the little alf toady. I fund nuffin. So, I'm going to put up a postar. Hopefully sumone haz seen him.

Feel bad for makin him leeve. I was going to be quit about it. But... what if it's my falt? I drew up a thing to post up.. and tore it from my notes. Think it'll help..
DreamsMay 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 06:50 PM #15
17th of Second Seed - [ The page is stained with an unknown, sweet smelling substance.]

I cleened Uncle's shrine after talking with the boss ladee. She did not seem mad at me.. That is good. Told her of what happened.. Or... what I remmber. Which isn't much...Told her that shorty alf seemed angree with me. I did not tell her that he punched me though.. Or did I? ....

I ran to the shrine after our talk. Uncle's shrine was filthe. I dunno how. But cleened. it. Now it's better. I want to bild a better shrine to him... one day. I think Uncle would lyke it.

It's too dark to go back now. Think I'll spend night here. Uncle's shrine makes me feel safe. Tho... I miss the tavern.. Rum sounds good.. But promissed boss ladee that I woodn't touch the rum.. Bah! ... Sober. At least there's the purkle stuff..

Max is a good pillow.. Sleepee..
DreamsMay 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 07:02 PM #16
18th of Second Seed

Came back toady, earlee. It's nice to be back. Visited shorty alf's room, still not thair. So I've decideded to sit on the edge of rode going out of town.

Must bee careful tho.. Peeple mite step on me. Can't have that.

Wrote to Momma and Poppa.. They sent one back. War is still bad. They miss me tho. I miss them too. Lots I miss.. Them, snow, those little yellow berds.. Maybee sumday I can see them agan..

I can't say I'm happee about stupid weether.. Rain! ... Wet.... ew..

Edited May 18, 2017 at 07:21 PM by 0

DreamsMay 21, 2017
May 21, 2017 at 06:57 PM #17
21st of Second Seed

Shorty alf came back a feew days ago. I also spoke to boss ladee. Told her what was going on. Or tried.. I'm not vary good at this.

I seen him awake. He lookeded lyke he was gonna cry when he seen his yappy dog. Dog's leg is in cast. Poor pup.

I didn't stay long. Think he's still unhappee with me. So now I'm at Uncle's shrine by the river. I napped here earlier. So peaceful here. Uncle's shrine always makes me feel at ease.

Thut I herd whispering.. Is Uncle talking to me at last? Think I'll stay till it gets dark.. Then head back.. It's raining again.. Surrounded by water is unfair.. Wet.. ew. Why is it always water?

Edited May 21, 2017 at 07:33 PM by 0

DreamsMay 23, 2017
May 23, 2017 at 02:39 AM #18
22nd of Second Seed - [The page is badly splattered with rum. Stained and clearly at one point, was drenched as the page is wrinkled and a little damp. ]

Stumbleded out of the bar to sleep... Sumone threw up in my spot along side the tavern! ..... Ew.... Ewww.... Why?! .... Slept inside the tavern insted.. Behind the bar.. No one cared.. So all is good..

Woke up to a red hed standin on me... Rood... Tried to visit shorty alf.. He wasn't wake.. So I went back to Uncle's shrine. Desided to move that.. Having to swim.. to go visit his shrine is... for the berds.... So I've taken it up into the forest..

Heres to hoping those angry flowers don't eat me..

Tired.. Its been long day.. Think I'll sleep here.
DreamsMay 24, 2017
May 24, 2017 at 08:03 PM #19
[ Date's missing.. In it's place is a smudge of his own blood ]

I gots no memery of what happened last night... Last thing I remmber is sleeping on a soft bed.. First time I've slept in a bed since the Harbor place... Remmber drinking with argonin... Folk.. I thenk.. Seemed a good felow.

Got nuffin after that.

[ There's some things crossed out.. jibberish mostly. ]

I went to Uncle's shrine.. came back.. Then I got nuffin.. What happened?! ... I got the bleeden to stop.. What bit me?...
DreamsMay 26, 2017
May 26, 2017 at 06:47 AM #20
25th of Second Seed - [ Things are badly misspelled (worse so than what I can make them) and badly smeared all over the place. There's ink smudges and clearly places where he spilled what little of a drink he had left. ]

Seen Boss Lady tonight. Seh lookeded like sumthin was botherin her. She got robbed she said.. Sad day when peoples steel from Boss Lady. Met a cub with her. Young warrior, lady.. Her name is... Can't spell it.. not ruin it. Boss Lady asked I keep a watch over the cub. Poromised I wood. Look after one nother.

I shared a drank with the Ladies and then.. Then talked to the other for wile. I parted ways after bit.. Found Gloop walkin lone. Tried ta talk ta him.. He wasn' haven't it. I asked if he was feelin better. He punched me.... Think he broke my nose... All I did was touch his side.. Rood...

Went bak to Uncle's shrine after it. Chased deer away. They ateded the oferins.

I rered my journal.. Grabin for memeries.. But got nuffin. Thair's stuff.. But stuff don't ring bells.. Nother time?... Dunno.. Blackmarch... I seen it mentioneded... But... I can't remember.. What happeneded befour? Eh.... Another drink.. past no matter.
DreamsJun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 09:31 AM #24
21st of Mid Year

My frind, Dah, gave a supize visit toady. We walked a bit.. and talkeded. I showed him my ditch. He didn't seem happe. Showeded him Uncle's shrine too. He's the only one that no's. I went with him to his house. His wif don't lyke me, but they supized me by setin up a bed for me. A room too. In the barn. I can't spell his wif's name.. His wif is a healer. Nice ladee. I can't say what he does.. He asked me not to ever rite it. Same for his wif.

A bed... She dont lyke me.. But still gave me a bed. Nice ladee.

He said I culd stay. Said he talkeded to his wif. He had to convence her, he said. He went to slepe after that.

Talkeded to his wif. She.. is.. I can't spell it.. She said she don't hate me. But the luk she had.. Said I culd stay cause I am her mate's frind.

Edited Jun 21, 2017 at 09:34 AM by 0

DreamsAug 11, 2017
Aug 11, 2017 at 02:40 AM #25
[ The hand writing is sloppier than usual, and may be difficult to read ]

Toady...what is toady? ... Dont no. The shaks r bad. Want it to stahp. Won't stahp.. Out of purkle liqid. No gold to get more. Seeinging things... Things want to eat my face...MY FACE....

Staying way frum evryone... safer. So sick...Scared of herting sumone.. The beach is safe... safe sand... Bad water tho...

Bit by sumething near uncle's shrine a few days ago.. dog..thing... big dog thing...Bledin wont stop.. I kiled it ded tho.

Edited Aug 11, 2017 at 02:41 AM by 0