The journal of Falen

Entry one


Not a good day. My mother tells me that we need to cure our.. Condition. Any guard can kill me.. And get away with it. Everyone wants me dead. Kashya doesn't like me anymore. My only remaining real friends are Terath and Wren.. Do they want to kill me?

Entry two


Why do I do the things that I do? I always try to act like a hero and for what..? Here I am lying nearly dead next to a pool of lava, my leg is fucked up. Royally. I'm at least a fifteen minute walk away from Gladious' place.. No. I am not going to die here. It hurts to stand.. Maybe If I crawl.. No. Gods damnit.. Why am I doing this.. I miss my friends back home.. But I can't go back there. No I'll be hunted down. I need to find a way back to the Chateau.

Entry three?


I don't know what I am anymore. I'll always be the same beast that I was inside. I cannot change that. Or what it has done to me. I can't think straight. Or when I can. They are scary thoughts. Days ago I saw the face of a real life. And it smiled back at me. Some days I wish to die and be at peace with people I used to know. Others I do not. The only people I have been close with since I have gotten back is Wren, Terath, and Keys. People were kidnapped. I tried to save them. Not hard enough. I hate myself for that. What purpose do I even have here anymore? I'm just another lost soul. Trying to find their way back.

Entry four


This whole food situation is getting out of hand. Keys and I were out hunting and a tiger nearly got her. We almost had the thing too.I found an abandoned house, not too far away into the forest from the tree house. It's pretty neat I have to say. It has a courtyard, an old shed, and there was some interesting stuff on the inside. A perfect place to camp up in, nobody is going to buy this old place. Although.. Something kind of seems odd about it. I feel as if this place has seen many things.. I even saw a small stain of old rusted blood on the floor.. Maybe it was just an animal from a long time ago and my imagination is getting the best of me. I don't want to stop there though, I'm going to investigate this place some more. I swear to the gods if this place used to be a daedra worshiping hideout I'm going find whoever lived here if they are somehow alive and kick their ass.