I am Mirkan.

Entry... 1
Found many books lying around with many words of feeling and sadness. The town of... "Vulkwasten" has many books. I want to make one too. Yes yes.

Found dead deer, was good but i ate too much and threw up.

Saw a Fool today, he had jingly little bells all over his clothes and he called me creepy. I do not creep. My legs have long forgotten how to walk like that. He talked about Molag Bal. And bears... And ovals. Then I forgot what i was doing so i went outside.

.....I can not seem to understand these people. They are beautiful and sad. Have many hairs for the touchings and grabbings. They have carings and people, and pretty hair. Why are they sad? I must give all of them gifts tell them they are beautiful. They do not like me though... Perhaps i have forgotten myself in the wilds.

Entry 2!
Today was a good day. I saw over five widdles and two pale pretties! I got too excited and had to go throw up. Which made me hungry. I came back to the tavern and saw Beetlemer. He is nice, he called me wings. Yes yes. I like this. There was many whisperings though, i did not want to talk so i bought food. Actually bought food! I ate so much i needed a nap.

My nap was not good. I dreamt I was flying really high and i got shot with a bolt. The bolt got heavier and heavier till i feel to the ground and the ground ate me... It was scary. But I woke up. I woke up and I am fine... I'm fine

Entry 3
I saw the blues today but not in the blues. They were 'off doodie'. They had very long names like Amurethra and Saladrill. So i gave them better names. Silver and Clicks! But the Saladrill did not like the name and said he was 'Major' Which means hes in charge of the blues. But he was also off doodie. So Off-Doodie-Major.

Off-Doodie-Major keeps people safe. He arrests the criminals and grabbers! This is good, yes yes. Good relative to me, anyway. I gave him the seeing glass so he can look for grabbers better.

I want to get rid of all the grabbers.. There are many pretty hairs that make for the grabbings, but they don't know. I don't think they know, or they would be bald like me. They would fly away and sit up in the trees high above any evil grabbers with their dirty hands and hot fingers.... Do not want to think, time to be one with the sky.

Entry 4!
Met a red haired drawer today. He was very nice yes yes! Let me touch his hair, though it was wet. The Drawmer touched my bald. Said it 'suits' me. No one touches my bald... Don't know why.

I have learned a thing called a 'hand shake'. At first i thought it was silly to flap your hand around, but it is different! Like a hug but for your hands. I shall shake hands more now. My hand is big though... Don't want to hurt any widdles. I shall be gentle, yes.

Drawmer, or Thris, drew me. Him and the smiling one said nice things. That I was elegant. I've never been called elegant, but it was nice. I shall bring a gift... Need to find a gift. A shiny!
I like it here. I want to stay more, but the people are afraid. Do not want to make them scared... Am I scary? Want to make a 'home' talk to the people, protect them from grabbers or mean smellys. Yes, this town is nice and has good rotmeth! Family like it here too. So I will watch, keep safe, keep happy. -Dove

Entry 5
I pulled down my pants today!
But it was cold!
Got some fur!
Now its warm.
-Dove

Entry 6...

Came back today, checking on the town. Keep safe, keep happy. Copper was in the tavern yelling at a widdle widdle and my hugs distracted him. He gave me big bag of meats! All raw and yummy. The khajiit Fisher speaks in pretty sounds that go like ZA-JA-JO-ZZZZ.

One of my Pack was here. The lizard with feathers like me! Town was angry though, upset with his spine erectings. And I smelled the large healer on him. when i fell into his cave... Do we do livings here now? I see the orc smelly around never for long. I'm worried, do I chose my Family, or the Friends I love. Maybe is fine and nothing happen.

I do not like walls, keep them away. I need to see the sky at all times. I need to I need to. I dream still of the towers that tried to reach into the sky. Ever upward. Shining glimmering horrible. I dream still of the hair grabbings. Of closed doors. Of silent looks. In the sky I am free. It holds me like a lover. Soft with no grabbings only caresses of wind and rain.

I am free. I am free. The walls wont keep me. I am free.

Entry 7!

Things people do:
Hugs
Ear Rubbings
Hair Touchings
Giving of Gifts
Pet Names
'Handshake'

I am learning so good. Being a real people is much easier than i remember. Yes yes.
Dove

Entry 8.
I did not like the closed place. The cave. Why does Copper sleep in there? It has no sky and the doors are small. I suppose Copper is small... Maybe smallmer like small places! Make warm and good yes yes. His nest is small though, and ugly. I dont know how to tell him. He needs more shineys and shells and pretty things. I drop feathers through the hole in the floor for him. Line the sides with gifts for giving so he can make many good friends... Copper needs good friends. He makes the pettings but only hurt. The Off-Doodie- Major and Bells was hurt. Lots of people hurt...
If they were bald like me maybe they would not hurt as often. No hair for the grabbings, nope! They are pretty mer though. Pretty town, pretty people. I will watch better yes.
-Dove

Entry 9!

I saw the Barkeep again today, he is a nice man. At least relative to me. I saw an altmer with blue shinnies that floated around him and said 'ssssspspspptphptphthpp' they had pretty crowns too. There was pale haired man and he did not seem very nice, but maybe he is cranky, so I bring gift yes yes. The people say things like 'odd, or strange, or simple' i cannot tell if they are doing 'the figure of speech' or if they think these things are me. I am free. I am Mirkan.

I have good gifts ready for new friends yes yes. Brother is kind. has good inside even if his friends make the scary sounds.
The Horseman is not funny, but he too is kind. Even if he is grouchy. Even gave me a part time job to feed his animals. They are smart and strong. I shook his hand yes, to make the gesture of friendship even if he does not want the hair pettings. I told him of the towers, and the woods. He seemed to listen. It is nice when people hear you.
-Dove

Entry 10..

I bring many gifts today. A ribbon of blood for Horseman's sword, message for whats to come at the other end, yes. The smallest gift given first, so I don't forget later. The other gifts... were hard to give. A bit of ashes in a vial for Copper. Halo didn't want me to but they arn't his so. nyeh. I am sorry Copper. Hurt deep and cannot fix, I made it quick, yes... yes..

Now he is in clinic with Jingles, she is a good Clanmother, town need good Clanmother. Blind Brother has many questions about heart. The healings are difficult and take a long time, need friends hold pieces together. They are scared of the healings, and don't want to let the people in. Need more hair pettings, and ear rubbings.

The last gift i give to Silver when she wasn't 'on-doodie'. A sweet-soft flute, one I kept from my own flock. I not good at songs, but Silver is pretty and good, and protects the town. Saving people even when they don't want to be. They make the angry words at her, for her blues, like they make the angry words at the other blues. Even though they have the silvers in their pockets they do good. Halo say's i should stay from town but I want to be around to hear the sweet-softs and the happy words. To givings the gifts and pettings. People do the careings whether they want to or not. Even if it is very small. -Dove

Entry 11!

I went and visited Brave. Yes, Brave cause stay in scary place and get better. Even though heart hurt, work to get better. Give small shiney to play with between sick feelings. Offer sky. Offer wings. Maybe Brave will join me. I miss my flock... They were small and widdle but mine. Need find new yes. Make friends and learn how to people.

Entry 12.

Jinglees says altmer don't eat bloody meats. Brave say don't bite bones or bugs. Peoples not eat yummies, why? Brave was not supposed to eat the poison but she did. At least Jinglee liked my crunchies. The senche brought a skeever and let me eat all of it! Except the tail, i gave that to Jinglee. They were both worried that i eat uncooked meat, but ho else am i supposed to eat it? It was warm and juicy and i ate all of it before taking a nap. I like this place, don't have to do the pukings as much, feel stronger and better. I hope Brave joins my flock! I miss my old flock. I hope Nanik is happy...

Entry 13...

I broke the gate for Brave, but she wasn't happy... She wanted inside and i let her in with her friends yes yes. The Bellsmer did many yellings and his bird friend looked at me. I think i did something bad. I got to touch the Doormer's hair and did hand shakings. Saw another of mine. Darker kin with shinies. Maybe can do talkings or flyings. Maybe want join family or flock. Hmm...

Entry 14..

Icky khajiit. Don't like one bit nope. Has bad smell, bad feel. Makes skin all wiggly. Town should kick her out yes yes. Flew very far, looking for Brave. Not find... Got distracted, Found a nummy seal on the beach. Sand is itchy but pretty and sea big and beautiful, like liquid sky. I will stay here for a little while. Blues are back, slaves are free. Town does not need me to do the lookings. Maybe stay gone for longer. Town not need me at all...