Bells, Words, and Gillyflowers

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NED TO PRACTIS. RITIN. REDIN IS ESIER BUT SUM WURDS R HARD. LONG WONZ SPESILY. Seriduril HELPS A LOT AND I RITE FASTR NOW. FUCK FUCK FUCK ASSHOLE. WREN KEYS TATAN. HAV MANY THINS GOING ON THER R GOSTS AND I BROK MY RUL. Seridurl HAS BEN NIS

ASURA
I LIV IN A HOUSE
I LIVE ON THE LAWN
I AM A GARD
NO MOR CHESE
SA IS A SWIT
MY NAM IS Gilyn

*The words below are written sloppily, the letters are large and looping as though they were difficult to write*

HURTS HURTING I AM HURTING WURDS LUC UGLE I LUC UGLE. MIDL HURT FINGR HURT HED HURT. WANT DRINC TO FAR THO. HUNGRE. THIRSTE. NED Seriduril. PELIN WATCH ME WONT LEV NOT EVN ATAC. WONDR IF ANEWON NOTIS I AM NOT ON FE RAMP.

I AM HURT
I AM HURT
DID
WER IS FRENDS?
FUCK HURT FUCKING HURT
*There is a messy aimless scribble below*

DIDNT DI. DONT LYK LAENG DOWN. WANT TO RUN WANT TO CLIM. WANT TO HOLD PEPLE CLOS BE FRE. CHEST HURT, STEL SAYS I DID. I THENK... I THENK I REMEMBR. SAW MISELF. HARD TO EKSPLANE. EVRYWON WAS HER, THEY YELD A LOT. FEL ASLEP... NOW IT'S KWIET...

AL THE BUKS R DIRTY... HAV IDEAHS.

GOT BATH TODA. GODS I FEL BETER. BUT NOW THRE... THRIS AND WREN HAV SEN ME NACED. BEING TUCHED LIK THAT IS WERED. NIS BUT WERED. AT LEST MY BERD IS NIS, AND I CULED OF. Seridurl COMING BAC SUN. THRIS NEDS TO MAK HIM CUCI NOT WITH CANIS THO.

I DREMD THAT I WAS STANDING IN THE TAVRN. KEYS WAS DRINKING T... BUT THEN SHE LUKED AT ME AND SHE HAD THE VAMPIRS I'S. CULDNT MAKE FIR, HAD NO SILVR. SHE KEPT ASKING IF I WAS GOING TO SNITCH. OVR AND OVR... I NED TO GET OVR IT.

I WAS IN THE STARS. UP UP UP HI. SUN I HERD THE WISPERS. SOWND LIKE THRIS AND Seriduril. THOS FADED AFTR A TIM, AND I FLOTED IN THE STARS SUM MOR... THEN. THER WAS GREN I FEL THRU IT AND FEL AL THE WAY DOWN, I DIDN'T WAK UP WEN I HIT THE GROWND. IT AL TURNED TO WATER. I TRID TO SWIM OWT BUT ONLY WENT DOWN, THE WATER TURNED RED LIK BLUD. CUDNT BRETH.

WEN I WOK UP Seriduril AND STEL WER THER. ACTING STRANG LUK SIC.

I DON'T WANT ANEWON ELS TO SE ME NAKED.

I don't want to rite rite now

Figurd owt lowr cas.

Kaget cam to me n drem. Led me to shak. I told Keys but not sur. So i went to chek it owt. The sombes are ther. Almost did agan, but savd bi bat... Then wel... I shuld rethink mi choyses.

Bit me. Culd be sam... Mabe. Culd be lik him. Si.

Mabe... I du fel betr

The gat brokn. Lawn ful of fethrs. I can't.

I hav frend, blu bird namd Sul. It wont lev my hair. But i lik it. Comfurting. I drem farthr fli hir can i tuch the stars?

Wat do i want?

I am new.

The wurld is new. It is lowd and beuteful. Can they al her? Do they no? The ringing, the song, they al sing. It is cler now... wel sort of. I can se. I can fel. In front of me is Nirn. Lik Sul i watch. First, fix Sul. And i ned a place. Got to hid bode.

I am kwiting the gard. I hav to.

Si. Is beuteful. I don't hav regrets. Ren stil cars. Seriduril still cars. I hav Sul. My hart hurts. My ears hurt. But i wont let myself dwel. Ther ar to mane wonderful things to liv for. To be, to do. I am a travler. I just am. I wil continu to be.

My tabard is gon. Returnd with the other things. I forgot how gud lif culd be. Unatached. Drifting. I can go anywher. Be anywun. Playd hid and sek and fown Si talking to a wumer. She askd alot of kwestshuns. To wich i had few answrs. Si sas to tel them what i ned even if its only a little. On anuther note, i lik the silks. And i hav a dat. The first in a long tim

I live in a wel
I mis Sul
I luv Si
My name is Gilyn Bels
Fuck fuck fuck. Shit
S'wit
My ears hurt.

I fownd Sul.
They r in Stel. Y? How do I get her owt?
Ren is saf. but hurt... I don't know how to help. Can't play with sowls. I'v ben luky. Fuck Fuck fuck. I am tird, angre. Seridurils tarts betr be gud. I want to et sevn and slep with Si.
I mis the town, i can't wat to go to the Ros Gardn. I'm going to drink win, and eat a hewg plat of frewt.

Fik won, anuthr breks.
I live in a well.
I her the wurld.
Sowls can brak or fik. Drems liv in the sowl?

Wantd to eat. Wantd to hurt. Wantd to fli. I had to think of Si. Of Ren, Seriduril, Thris. Of dansing in the town. Of Stars and tres. So clos...

Hu r thes pepel? They scar me. Won mer keps a bat n his poket... Fucking rele? Wren and Seriduril and Si. We r al her with thes... I don't know. As alwas they r breking arownd me. I yeld at them. I shuld slap them to.

But I love them. Al of them.
I put a dick on a big rok.
I hav a wurd.
Seriduril dosn't lik tarts anemor.

Si... y? I ned a sowl. Thre sowls... How?